Oct. 18th, 2004

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I've been watching this series for the last couple of hours...

The character relationships in this show are very interesting. I'm not sure I like it. I wish I could like Mitsuomi as he was before because he's just very cool and he seems like he would be perfect with Maya...

Shin...it's really too bad that he's dead but his relationship with Maya... Maya's relationship with Mitsuomi... Mitsuomi's relationship with Maya... It's all very hard to understand.

It's sorta of a depressive anime too. I've gotten to episode 10 but... The past is annoying. The present is annoying. I don't want to think about what's going to happen at the end of this anime.

And I really should be asleep. 1:30 AM and I have class tomorrow (well, today). Not good. And I really don't have time this week to be watching more of this anime. *makes a face* Damn.
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Suddenly listening to my old collection of Marmalade Boy songs has me yearning for the past and the feelings I had when I first watched and loved Marmalade Boy. I know it was silly and a bit stupid at times, but I genuinely liked the series. I miss it. I wish I had the CDs with me... I wanna re-live some of the moments... *sighs*

Why can't Thanksgiving come sooner? When I go home, I'm gonna bring my entire collection of CDs with me. I can't live without them! Must, must, must have!

Not to mention my PoT. What was I thinking when I left them all at home? I have no idea. Must bring everything back simply because of the fact that I love them so much that I can't bear not to have them with me.

It will be fun after Thanksgiving.
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Lately, I've been feeling some doubt as to Yuuri/Wolfram... The more and more I think about it, they are not destined and they're doomed. I can't imagine them becoming happy with each other. A part of me just thinks Wolfram deserves better than Yuuri and Yuuri really shouldn't go along with the engagement, especially since it was made in error. This can only lead to disaster.

Plus, every time I think about what if Wolfram leaves, what will Yuuri do?

Personally, I think the answer is: NOTHING. He'll just wonder about it for a bit and move on without another though. Is that a man who is in love? I'm starting to think not.

So now my ideas for fanfics has moved on from Wolfram leaving and Yuuri chasing. It's now a series.

First is an in depth look at Wolfram's thought processes as he decides to leave Yuuri.

Next is a look into Yuuri with respect to Wolfram. That basically takes off after Wolfram leaves. Yuuri accepts it and moves on. This is also where Wolfram meets someone to be with and Yuuri sees Wolfram happy.

Then it's a look at Yuuri and Wolfram together in respect to each other and how their relationship progresses after some complications.

Basically the themes of the stories are like this:

Wolfram's Story: He deserves to be happy.

Yuuri's Story: The past can't be undone.

Yuuri and Wolfram's Story: If you push hard enough, something will break.

I am still aiming for a somewhat happy ending but it might not happen. I think I'll start working on it after my next midterm. We'll see how it goes.

Damnit!

Oct. 18th, 2004 09:39 pm
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I want the Harutoki OP theme mp3 now! It's very catchy and I have it in my head but I can't find it anywhere... Maybe it hasn't been released?

Diana, you need to download this show! Now!

I haven't watched it but not for the lack of want. I just have no time. I think I'll take off some time tonight from sleeping to watch it, providing I ever finish with this damn freaking essay!!! I just can't see to get my thoughts to line up with it! God damn it!

Stupid Writing the Essay! It's supposed to be an easy class! And yet I do so much freaking work just to get one two page paper out. Fuck, I hate this. I'm off to work on it some more I guess... *cries* Don't wanna!

edit x1:



Gary! This picture makes him look so much cooler. Is it him? Yes, it is! Wow!
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From a Handwriting Analysis Online (http://www.handwritingwizard.com)

Sherry has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

One way Sherry punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself.

Sherry is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Sherry basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach." She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence category, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Sherry's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Sherry slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Sherry can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Sherry has an over-awareness of self. She often feels self-conscious. She fears ridicule, therefore she is careful not to place herself in a position to receive any ridicule. She wonders what people will think if she acts in a certain manner. When encountering a new group of people, Sherry may stay on the sidelines until she has the people categorized, or she may behave in a positive attention getting manner to assure people think good thoughts about her from the start. In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, she still feels insecurity. She will perform better if someone else is with her because the fear of ridicule from her peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from her clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when she is training, she doesn't have to put herself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.

Sherry is not facing something going on in her life today. She is deceiving herself about it. Often, Sherry's opinion of herself is different than those around her. This trait gives Sherry the ability to deny anything that does not agree with her "truth." This trait is not always something negative. It is only a defense mechanism allowing Sherry not to face some reality in her life at this time.

Sherry is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.

Sherry is a very emotional person with a broad range of emotions from the highest highs to the lowest lows. She feels emotional situations very strongly. She'll flash to the very peaks of elation, sweeping everything before her. Then, for some reason unknown to herself, she will burn out emotionally. These moods swings can be very disturbing to her. Sometimes, she feels that she can no longer produce anything. But, after given some time alone to "recharge her emotional batteries", she will spring back into action. Because Sherry feels situations intensely, she relates easily to others' problems. If she is not careful, when she comes into contact with someone who is in a depressed frame of mind, she will also suffer the same emotions and change moods. Sherry reacts impulsively, without much thought before hand. She may plan everything in detail before she even begins, then do it completely different when the time comes to carry it through. Sherry has a strong need for affection. She thrives on touching and being touched. Sherry desires being told that she is loved, every day. She enjoys being the center of attention. She loves attention, sometimes she even retells stories that got her attention earlier. Sherry has the possibility of being a actor or natural born salesperson, simply because she relates so well to other people. She likes expressing how she feels, what she is doing, and what she plans to do. She is a people person. She will work most efficiently in a people orientated job as opposed to a job working alone on an assembly line (that would drive her insane.)

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Sherry doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant.

*****

OMG!!! That is so me!!! Well, except of the touching part (not a touchy-feely person) but definitely everything else! The mood swings, the insecurity, the planning, the scatter-brain enthusiasm, the need to be loved. Wow... I'm in awe right now. This is almost scary...

I don't quite agree with the "normal healthy self-esteem" though. I definitely have some problems there... But I do feel like I can do anything if I try hard enough so maybe that does mean I do have somewhat of a good self-esteem. I just never try that hard and I feel bad about it.

But if I had to say something about this, this analysis is me. I feel like it resonnates in my soul. This is the essense of Sherry. You don't understand me? That's the way I am.

Ack! Must do essay! Damn.

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