Back!

Taidaima!

I'm back from ASB!!!

And I'm alive!

We got in about 5 AM this morning and I spent about an hour online before going to sleep. I had pretty much slept the entire way back, which was like eight-nine hours but the temptation of a bed was just too much after a week of hard ground and lumpy air mattresses.

It was certainly an experience. A great one too. I will never forget the good people of Danville. Ever. They've changed my views of the South and of Southern people. The whole God thing was definitely founded (50 churches, one every mile, etc) but they're pretty good, nice, welcoming people. I am definitely doing this next year. And joining Habitat for Humanity. Now that I've got some badass stair making skills, I can totally put my skills to work. ^_^

Anyway, we got back unharmed. We got into NYC about 4 AM but took a little detour to Queens to drop off Stella (our fearless leader). Ya haven't lived until you've gone 80 mph to Queens from Manhattan. She made the 30 min trip in like 10 mins. But Queens is really cute! They have houses! And a lawn! And trees! I would like to live there. That would be a nice place to live...Best of both worlds.

So I'm back. I have laundry to do, I'm half-heartly eating and I have tons of homework to do. I'm gonna do my Chem essay tonight, read tons of stuff tomorrow, start on my Russia essay (or at least look over the stuff I need to do) tomorrow too since I conveniently forgot it's due this Friday. But it's all good.

Since it's Saturday, my roommates haven't come back yet so it's nice having teh place to myself. It's nice really. Calm and quiet.

I wonder when the other car got in though. After their speeding ticket, they slowed down so damn much (200 miles behind us) but it's understandable. To make one mistake not twice, but three times has got to make them think they weren't gonna do it again. And besides, the budget wouldn't take another hit to it. Already we have Steve's two tickets and Kendra's. That's got to be at least $300 dollars and we have like $900 altogether.

Still it's funny as hell. I mean Kendra was going sooo damn fast. We couldn't even see them any more and we were in the good car with Stephen driving. He's the cutest man (him without his shirt on *drool*) you've ever seen but so totally gay. But still, yummy. I was a bit worried about Stella the other half of the way though... She kept driving on the line... But I was asleep so quickly, I didn't really worry about it.

Anyway, the journal entries to my days in Danville follows. Picture post will follow this in about a week or however long itr to takes me to compile everything from the group. I'm cutting every entry, as well as postdating them to the correct date. They're long so if you feel up to reading a couple pages about my trip to Danville, each written after the work day at the church, have fun. :)

It's so nice to be back though. We got back into NYC and it was so weird being in Danville for the week and being back in the city... The buildings seemed weird. The cars, the people, the whole feel of everything. It makes me long for Hood River and small town America. Which is weird because this is Sherry saying that. She loves big cities. But you definitely get used to living in Danville, even if it was just for Spring Break.

Someday I want to go back and look at these houses that we helped to build. Someday. :)

The Rasmus mp3s

Read these lyrics and tell me they're not great:

The One I Love
The Rasmus

Haven't slept in a week
My bed has become my coffin
Cannot breathe, cannot speak
My head's like a bomb, still waiting
Take my heart and take my soul
I don't need them anymore

The one I love
Is striking me down on my knees
The one I love
Drowning me in my dreams
The one I love
Over and over again
Dragging me under

Hypnotized by the night
Silently rising beside me
Emptiness, Nothingness
Is burning a hole inside me
Take my faith and take my pride
I don't need them anymore

This bed has become my chapel of stone
A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown
So take my life, I don't need it anymore.

At first I thought it was saying "Don't want a love" in the place of "The One I Love" but either way, it's a good song. Though if it were "Don't want a love" it would have been depressing in a good way. :)

I seriously am becoming enamoured by The Rasmus.

The song: http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/The%20One%20I%20Love.mp3

Next song, Time to Burn. I was gonna put up Last Waltz but that is such a depressing song. But it's good really, just a bit dark.

Time to Burn
The Rasmus

Fear of the dark tears me apart
Won't leave me alone and time keeps running out

Just one more life, I'm so sick and tired
Of singing the blues, I should turn my life around

Tell me why do I feel this way
All my life I`ve been standing on the borderline
Too many bridges burned
Too many lies I've heard
I had life but I can't go back
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
And I know I don't have any time burn

They follow me home, disturbing my sleep
But I'll find a place, place where they cannot find me
Maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared
But too many times I've closed the doors behind me

Tell me why do I feel this way
All my life I`ve been standing on the borderline
Too many bridges burned
Too many lies I've heard
I had life but I can't go back
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
And I know I don't have any time burn

Leave it all behind
Cross the borderline
Face the truth, don't have any time to...
Don't have any time to burn

http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/105-the_rasmus-time_to_burn-ser.mp3

Last song, Back in the Picture. It's a bit more uplifting, I think...

Back in the Picture
The Rasmus

There were times in my life I was down on my knees, now it's over
Deep inside my heart I know
Simply put I've been stabbed in the back ever since I remember
Deep inside it hurt to let go

I'm back in the picture, back in the picture
I wonder what took so long, so long

Dedicate everything I create
To my friends I would die for
But you will always be the one
Memories that you can't overrun, memories I could cry for
I thought I'd always be on the run

http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/The%20Rasmus%20-%20Back%20In%20The%20picture.mp3

Okay, I lied. This is the last one. I love this song so I just had to put it up too.

Guilty
The Rasmus

Who-o-o-o-o-oh
Yea-e-e-e-e-eh

I feel guilty
my words are empty
no signs to give you
I don´t have the time for you

you say I'm heartless
and you say I don't care
I used to be there for you
and you've said I seem so dead, that I have changed
but so have you

guilty - Who-o-o-o-oh, guilty, I feel so
empty - Yea-e-e-e-eh, empty, you know how to make me feel

I put a shield upon you
I didn't mean to hurt you
I would have only poisoned your mind
never meant to make you cry

you've been so thoughtless
I can see right through you
you used to be there for me
don't you leave say goodbye
cause' you have changed but so have I

guilty - Who-o-o-o-oh, guilty, I feel so
empty - Yea-e-e-e-eh, empty, you know how to make me feel

I never though that the time and the distance
between us made you so much colder.
I'll carry the world on my shoulders

(Guilty) - Who-o-o-o-o-oh
(Guilty) - Yea-e-e-e-e-eh (guilty)
Guilty - Who-o-o-o-o-oh
Empty - Yea-e-e-e-e-eh

guilty - Who-o-o-o-oh, guilty, I feel so
empty - Yea-e-e-e-eh, empty, you know how to make me feel
Guilty - Who-o-o-o-o-oh
Empty - Yea-e-e-e-e-eh, you know how to make me feel

Guilty - Who-o-o-o-oh, so guilty
Empty - Who-o-o-o-oh, so empty
You know how to make me feel

http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/The%20Rasmus%20-%20Guilty.wma

Uh yeah, then. All the songs are a little one the depressing side but they're really good songs. Try them out. I certainly like them. :)

Ugh, how can I be tired... I had like over 12 hours of sleep... :\

Fall 2005

My ideal schedule for the next semester would go something like this:

Elementary Japanese I: MW 930-1045; TR 800-915
Conversations of the West LECT: MW 200-315
Conversations of the West RCT: R 330-445
Molecular Cell Biology LECT: MW 1100-1215
Molecular Cell Biology RCT: R 200-315
Organic Chemistry LECT: TR 930-1045
Organic Chemistry RCT: W 330-445
Organic Chemistry WKS: M 330-445
Organic Chemistry Lab LECT: W 800-915
Organic Chemistry Lab: T 130-600

I tried my best to not put in big gaps but still have gaps on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. There wasn't any way to avoid them... And I didn't want 8 AM classes but ended up having to do three. It's gonna suck going to class from Water Street... But, if everything works out, no class on Friday! Yes! And no evening classes except for lab. Yes! I have no time to do AR but I didn't thik I would... I'll have to get some other work study job this year. :\

Looking at all that Chem makes me sick. It's gonna be sooo bad. It's basically there to weed out all the stupid people... Technically the WKS is optional but I think I'm gonna need all the help I'm gonna get...

I need to start my Chem essay... It's almost 10 PM and still nothing but looking over it, it doesn't seem like it'll be that long or hard. Which makes me think I'm missing something royally. Which makes me procrastinate wanting to do it... :\

About the schedule, if one class closes, I'm screwed. I'm okay when it comes to the Lab. If it goes, I can move it to Thursday and move my afternoon courses to Tuesday. Or I could do it Saturday if the worst comes to happn. Which I want to avoid at all costs.

Molec Cell and Orgo going doesn't worry me at all. Orgo can move which can allow for some space too. Con West...Well, I can have it at other times on MW or I can have it TR too. Japanese is the only thing I'm absolutely worried about. It's at an early time but it's the only one I can have it at. It's four classes a week -- and one different times on those days. I have to have it early or it'll conflict with Orgo Lab and I can't have it on the only other time because it'll conflict with Molec Cell. I have to take Orgo and Molec Cell. Japanese is still optional because I could do Spanish later and it's only for one year. And Con West is an absolute must. Hopefully I'll get this schedule. But I'm scared... I get to register on the 4th day of registration... :( That's so late again! :( They hate me, they really do. :(

Man, I feel so red and itchy... I wonder if I'm having an allergic reaction to the lotion I put everywhere on my body... That would so not be cool...

Whatever, it's essay time anyway...

edit x1: Aw fuck. I just found out what that song we've been singing at the beginning of the work was. Turns out it's Psalm 118:24. No wonder the entire congregation could sing it back to us that one night...

Okay, so sue me. I'm an atheist non-Christian. How was I supposed to know it was anything special?

edit x2: WTF?! Why the hell aren't my Streamload MBs registering?! I keep downling and downloading it always stays on the same freaking number. It's suppose to go down! :| I don't know if it's a good thing or not... I mean I only have four more hours until they're active but... I want them to register. Life would be easier that way.