Ah, a LJ Post...

I haven't posted in days. Wow. This summer has me totally out of whack with everything that's out there in LJ land... It's my fault really though. I'm just not really at a point in my life where I can focus on anything aside from ME. Or at least I don't feel like I am. I guess you could call this a reversion as I sink back into ultimate lurkerdom?

Anyway, I've decided to use YesAsia to buy Kimeru's DVD... I found out that they accept PayPal and went "Weee!" I adore PayPal... It's so convenient and so easy to use... I'm so glad I don't have to worry about a check getting lost in the post (like I do every time I send a check for storage) and I'll have it preordered as soon as my money transfer goes through... I'm not the type to have $40+ in my PayPal account so I needed a small infusion of funds. Yay! Kimeru goodness is definitely good.

My sister is currently watching Dae Jang Geum and I'm afraid I've lost interest in the whole thing... Maybe it is the dubbing that makes me not want to watch more? And the fact that I can't really understand everything they're saying? Half the time I turn to my sister, asking her what the hell happened or what did a certain person say and since she's so into the whole show, she doesn't really want to take the time away from her show to explain things to her stupid Cantonese-challenged sister. :(

Anyway, I'm in a good mood. I've almost caught up in KKM and by tomorrow I will have the 45th episode with Elizabeth! I'm so happy!

Not to mention, I've found the various incarnations of beckymarie and friended most of them. I feel like a stalker... ^^;;; But I absolutely adore her so much, back when she was like the BNF for PoT. She's the one who got me into Atobe/Tezuka, HaruToki, Bleach and HanaKimi! I adore her so much! I've never really posted on her journal and I doubt she knows who I am, but I am her ardent fan.

And she's reminded me that I simply must get back into HanaKimi... She's totally right -- the gay doctor was really great and I never did get past chapter 100 and see how his relationship with the photographer turned out... I don't even know why this series got away from me... I had so many more chapters to download too... When I get the chance, I must scour IRC and my Streamload account for more chapters.

But enough of that... I am so incredibly happy! I rediscovered Branch's works and her TezuAtoTezu fic Backstage! I was just telling Masha that I was disappointed that I couldn't send her this fic but I found it at last! Who knew it would be as easy as typing "Atobe," "Tezuka," and "fishing" into Google??? I scoured Beckymarie's TezuAto recs at Fleeting Fancies, thinking that I might have found it there originally, went through a good portion of FF.net as well as the TAT LJ comm... All that effort, practically wasted. :\ Just my luck.

Oh, well, I found it and I'm never letting it go again. :)

Before I go back and oogle and fangirl over Backstage again, I must comment on the song. I first heard it on an episode of Smallville and I recognized that it was Switchfoot immediately. Their song is so distinct and ever since A Walk to Remember (I was always a shameless chick when it came to chick flicks) and I heard Dare You to Move, I've liked them. Even if they're a Christian band, whatever. They make good music.

But listening through this song yesterday, I realized, this song is rather depressing! Making me rethink life like that is not good and I can feel myself answering the question "This is your life. Are you who you want to be?" despite my need to suppress it... Not a good song. I wonder what that says about me though? I'm so ready to rethink my life just from this one song...Obviously I'm discontent and that makes me anxious. I've always known true happiness wouldn't be obtainable but I've always been happy with just being content. If I'm discontent... :(

God, that just kinda ruined my good mood. I'm going off then, to read Backstage to make me all happy again. ^_^