Nostalgia

A few weeks ago, I wrote about Kimeru triggering old memories and that when listening to his songs, they make me feel nostalgic. But now I know that listening to older songs, from when I was first really getting into different sorts of music, are even more nostalgic.

God, how long has it been since I last heard Westlife? Or Ronan Keating? I'm listening to "Loneliness Knows Me By Name" and even though it's been ages, I still remember all the words. Not to mention "Keep On Walking" which was probably my most favorite Ronan Keating song ever... Because I was really into HL at the time, I had thought the lyrics were perfect for Methos and for Methos' relationship with Duncan. And of course, that got me thinking to all the old fics I use to read...all the really good D/M stuff that was out there so I had to whip out my fanfic CD and now I'm reading Tessa Rae's So Comes a Reckoning again. That and possibly her What If... series are probably some of the most epic stories in the HL fandom (well, in the D/M HL fandom) and I totally fell in love with her reading these.... I'd been avoiding So Comes a Reckoning for a bit because of it's dark nature so it's been a long time since I last read this story... It feels new and yet at the same time, familiar and old...

Revisiting old beloved stories...listening to songs once loved...It's not bad to do this once in a while I think... :)

edit x1: Kimera!

Oh my god, Kimera... *sighs* I've reach tag's In Search of the Truth and my god, my first obsession! My first obsession, my first real crush, my first fandom... You always remember your firsts, don't you?

I miss Liam... He was always my favorite... *sighs* I named myself after him and I still bear his name today -- that's how effected I was by him.... I was "ILLK" for a good many years (and in some places, I still am "ILLK") but that later changed to "sherryillk" which was really "sherryILLK" in the beginning... Somehow that mutated to just simply "sherryillk" and here I am, years later, still ILLK in some form.

God, I'm all teary now. I want to be ILLK again -- to be the person ILLK was online. I really miss those times, back when we all hung out at the Philosophy Sphere, writing and commenting on fanfics... The PS is dead now but after Liam died, there was really no point to stay, was there? Sandoval went all evily and all my hopes of Liam and Sandoval reconciling went down the toilet... But still, I will always remember season two before everything went to hell.

I'll be sherryillk as long as I can. This is me honoring my first love and maintain a connection even though it's been years since I even did anything for that fandom. But still, it holds a place in my heart and I think it always will.

edit x2: Not an nostalgic song, nor a nostalgic story this time but a nostalgic poem (well, bit of a poem anyway):

From Auden's Funeral Blues:

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought love would last forever - I was wrong.

It was one of my favorite poems growing up... That, and Bryon's "When We Two Parted" of which I can still recite most of by heart....

Odd dream...

I dreamed I was Koyuki from BECK and that the entire BECK group was performing at my school in Silver for a Christian choir group...

...it was very very weird... And considering the fact that I'm not actually Koyuki and don't really know any of their songs aside from Face and a bit of I've Got a Feeling, I was really freaked out about it...

But thankfully I didn't show my lack of knowledge because we only did Face and a couple of songs that didn't include me before time ran out. And then I had to rush from the concert to the seventh floor for Orgo lecture -- yeah, really weird.

I don't know why but as I was trying to get to the lecture, I got lost in the complex that is Silver, Waverly and Brown. I mean once you figure out how the three buildings interconnect, they're really not that bad... But show how I think I was in some part of Brown (since it has most of the science labs) and I had get directions to get back to Silver some how...

And when I got to the room, it wasn't 703 as it normally was but some odd building with really huge windows and for some reason, Mt. Adams in the summer (with a lot of the snow melted) was right behind us. It was really freaky because it seemed like we were literally right in front of the mountain.

And then they started talking about dropping quiz grades or curving them down or something like that and I basically woke up from that....

Today, in about ten minutes, I will be going over to Kevin's house to tutor him. Thankfully, it'll only be for an hour... Hopefully. I don't want to stay too long there because his family's going to be there and I'm going to be really awkward. And especially since the subject material is acid, bases and salts, I'm not feeling all too confident about it either. Aside from figuring out pH, I'm not sure I remember much from that... I really wish I had my notes... Wait, I might...But I really don't think so... I think made Diana take them home...

Ah whatever, I've got to get read and go.. I'm taking the bus this time for the first time so hopefully it'll be quicker than the subway...