Ugh... :(

I don't know what I was thinking tonight. Or what I'm still thinking. I really should have spent it either studying for my finals on Monday because I'm still wildly unprepared for the Programming one or writing my Japanese paper so I don't have it looming over me while my parents are here in New York for graduation...

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I probably should work on it tonight. But I really, really don't want to! I just want to hide for a while. I've been going nonstop for the last...Three or four days and it's been really exhausting and I just need a day to just stop and not do anything. And I've actually finished up my journal entries today so it's not like I did nothing. It's just that I should do more. Gah, this sucks.

What should I do?

Well, aside from tonight, tomorrow is going to be devoted to Programming and possibly Japanese. Sunday will be devoted to Programming some more and Ecology for my bird and plant ID test. That shouldn't take so long because for the most part, I have my birds down and a good many of the plants already floating around in my head so a couple of hours is all I need for that night. Gah, this sucks, this really sucks. And somehow I'll have to squeeze in my 2000 character Japanese final essay that's due by the 14th. Which is incidentally commencement so it's not like I really have that much time after Monday anyways. :\ I'll manage. I think. I just really don't want to do it tonight. Is that really all that bad? I mean I figure if I haul ass for two days, even if I don't totally work the entire time, I can manage to get studying done and some Japanese as well. I figure the Japanese thing is going to take close to four or more hours if I work straight through it... I'm just going to have to focus.

Oh my god, I'm doomed. I can't focus! I have the attention span of a five year old kid hopped up on sugar! *makes a face* It's going to go badly, I can just feel it... :\ I'm not too worried about Ecology but Programming is hard for me because I'm kinda not logical and I don't think well enough for that class. It takes a bit more creativity than I'm comfortable with... :\

Man, I just want to go bed already. But I'm not tired at all tonight. I've been getting ample amounts of sleep so I'm probably good for another five hours or so... :( I should work on Japanese. I really should. God, I really don't want to but every thing screams at me to take tonight and work on Japanese because I know this will be the most time consuming and the hardest thing I have yet to do. And it's the last thing I'll ever have to do for Japanese which is also nice...

Whatever. I'm going to take a shower and see I how I feel afterwards... I'm really feeling too guilty not to work on Japanese so I think I might try and get down my introduction and may half of my body so maybe I can bang out like a third of this tonight. Ugh, guilted into doing schoolwork on a Friday night by my conscience. Not exactly something that makes me feel all that great.

But I think if I do good work tonight, I'll gift myself with my last trip to a pho restaurant. I still have Nha Hang Pho Viet Huong to go so maybe I'll do that if I'm feeling better tomorrow or Sunday, providing the weather cooperates.

And lastly, because I hadn't done this in while, some random mp3 downloads of songs I'm really enjoying right now:

5566 - 漫游中国 (Man You Zhong Guo)
5566 - 喝采 (He Cai)
梁靜茹 (Jasmine Leong) - 絲路 (Silk Road)