Cramping...

Pain pain pain pain pain....

I really hate being a girl, I really hate being a girl, I really hate being a girl...

Menstrual cramps suck. They suck so much that I can't even begin to talk about their suckiness. I took an Advil and am hoping it will kick in soon because I really don't want to feel this bad any more. And the fact that I resorted to taking Ibuprofen is amazing to me. I'm more or less sure I'm allergic to Ibuprofen. It causes a horrible rash that ends up being pretty painful and I'm hoping to god that I won't get it this time because I only took one and that the one I did take would be enough to get rid of the pain already.

Life sucks. I want it to be tomorrow already. My cramps rarely go past the first day of my period so I'm guessing I have a good amount of hours still left to this pain before it ends. Ugh, why must they be so bad? Why must girls have cramps at all? Some girls don't and I really envy them right now... I so want to trade bodies with them...

I tried going to sleep, can't because the pain is keeping me from slipping into sleep. Lying down seems to make it hurt more but the warmth of being in the covers seem to help. I really wish we hadn't lost the hot water bottle because that would probably help a lot right now too... And my brother and sister are sick of me complaining about the pain of it... Hell, I'm sick of me complaining about it but it really, really hurts. I almost always get cramps during my period, the uncomfortable feeling I get generally tells me that my period had started but it's not always this bad. It lulls me into a false sense of security and I forget how bad it can be.

I just want to it to be over. Either that or asleep. At least then I wouldn't have to feel the pain... :(

Kent and Diana are weeding right now. I had planned to help them but I feel so nasty now that I even dream of helping out... It makes me feel guilty but at least I know tomorrow will be better and hopefully I'll be able to help out with it tomorrow...

edit x1: Oh fuck. I think I figured out the problem with my finger when I woke up today. My middle finger on my right hand was stuck in the bent position when I woke up and it really didn't want to straighten out at all. I was, of course, rather alarmed by it. After a while, I could get it to unbend but instead of a smooth motion, it would more or less pop in and out of place. After some more time, I was able to get it to go to a more smooth motion but it's still a bit sensitive and feels a bit slow and heavy.

I did some online searching and it sounds like I'm in the beginning stages of trigger finger, something that is caused by the narrowing of the sheath that surrounds my tendon. I think it's probably because I've been crocheting a lot lately since people who have "hobbies [that] require repetitive gripping actions are more susceptible." That sucks. I don't want to give up my crocheting but it sounds like I'm going to have to cut down on it for the next couple of weeks. :(

I certainly don't want it get any worse than it is now... It's supposed to be pretty painful and thus far, I'm haven't had much pain associated with it. And I certainly don't want it to ever get to the point that I do. So I guess no crocheting for me for the next couple of weeks. Joy. I haven't even finished my blue or pink bear yet! :(