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There's an art book for HnG. A character guide art book. THAT I DON'T HAVE.

I thought my collection was complete! I thought my collection was perfect!

BUT HOW CAN IT BE COMPLETE IF I DON'T HAVE THE ART BOOK????

I can deal with not having the Perfect versions where everything is bigger with prettier covers, I can deal with it even if it makes me sad to know I don't have them. After all, I have the original versions and why would I need two copies (even if one's cooler)? But not having this? I think I might expire just thinking about it.

But damn, it's expensive to buy on eBay. And used to. Yuck. I hate buying used books -- never know what condition they might be in. Although, after buying from Borders, I've realized that even buying new books doesn't mean they'll be in awesome condition... And what a sad revelation that was... :(

It's been out forever but apparently my favorite online Japanese bookstore Sasuga can order it for me. And adding in the shipping costs, it will still cost less than the price of shipping if I bought it on eBay. Those Japanese sellers really know how gorge you on shipping and handling... It does not cost $18 (not even counting the price of the actual volume!) to send a single manga volume to the States. It DOES NOT. Even adding handling costs, it's still a bit too much, right?

But I'm leery to do yet another backorder... I still haven't gotten that one book from the last purchase. :\

Should I or shouldn't I? That is the question... I'm already at the Payment page but I'm starting to think I shouldn't be too quick and impulsive. It's always the impulsive buy that ends up making me regret it. Until I receive the package, which in that case, makes me feel like I'm opening a present on Christmas Day and I feel all warm and happy inside. Even if I know deep down I just wasted money. Still, when I think of the fact that it's only $15.75 and with collection will be completely and totally completed, I can't help but want to whip out my credit card and punch in those numbers.

Maybe I should sleep on it?

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Apparently I have a cache of Naruto SasuNaru doujinshi.

O.O

Was I seriously THAT into that pairing? I'm rather shocked at the number... It practically doubles the number of HnG doujinshi I have and I actually remember being into HnG that much.

Yeah, so... I joined a doujinshi sharing community. And even though I had planned on just being a leech -- one who gives thanks, mind you, but a leech none the less, but now I feel guilty. I don't actually have that much doujinshi on my computer since I only got back into things... But I decided to at least upload a few of the ones I did have (some of them were quite cute after all) and I was feeling really guilty... So I looked through my external hard drive for some old favorites...

How many should I upload, I wonder? I don't really want to do them all... Maybe four or five? At a time, slowly making my way through them all. From what I've seen, none of the ones I have are actually uploaded yet so I could, probably... :\

Ah, this is a bother. This is why I didn't want to join that community in the first place. I knew this would happen and here I am, feeling tortured for something I'm not doing, something, I said I wasn't going to commit to and here I am, committing to it. OTL

It's times like this where I totally feel like I've just completely failed. Gah.