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sherryillk) wrote2008-03-14 02:53 am
sherryillk) wrote2008-03-14 02:53 am
Oh my god, I'm such an idiot!
I got the grade back from my programming assignment, the one that took me forever and frustrated me to no end to complete and when I was finally able to get something that worked and I lost a whole point on it. Since it's only worth four points, I was gutted. I spent so much time on it, battled with it and when I finally was able to get it work, I felt so proud and happy and I still end up getting it wrong? I read the remarks about what was taken off and it didn't make sense because I thought I fixed those mistakes.
And that's when I started to get this nagging feeling that something was very wrong... I went and downloaded my own attachment to the grader and it was as I suspected. I sent her the wrong file. I sent her the file that I was working on that night where I was so freaking frustrated with it and not the one that I continued to work on the next day and was able to fix the previous problems. Ugh, I'm so stupid! The problem was that I didn't even realize there was another file! I added it to a new workspace but I guess that caused it to be saved under the new workspace... And for some odd reason, even though JCreator sees it, I can't through the harddrive... That folder just doesn't exist, just the old one. So no wonder I didn't know!
I emailed the grader back, explaining things and I asked if I could resubmit it. I realize it's a bit of a stretch, but who knows if you don't ask? Besides, I really did spend a lot of time working on that damn thing! I want full credit! I wasted hours of my life trying to figure it out and I was really ecstatic when I actually got it to work that I immediately went to send it in... Who would have thought it would turn out to be this horrible mess?
I mean I realize one point is not all that much and it's only homework along a whole line of homeworks but still... I saw what program I actually sent her -- it was pitiful and so obviously half-done and I really don't want the grader thinking that I would allow something like that to be sent to her. It didn't even work for god's sake! :( It's so sad... And it's basically Spring Break so I can't even talk to my professor about this... :(
What a horrible way to top off this horrible week... And here I thought things were finally getting better.... T_T God, I'm really broken up about this... I wonder if it's not just the stress of everything right now or it's just PMSing. Probably both because something like this should bring me to tears and I just really want to bawl right now... T_T Life sucks...
Okay, gotta think good thoughts. Nine cent cabbage. Ninety-nine cents for a three pound bag of red potatoes. Going to the aquarium this weekend. Going to Book Off this weekend and buying myself some nice manga. Getting paid tomorrow. Spring Break, no classes, lots of sleep. *breathes deeply* I will not let this get me down.
Okay, feeling a bit better now but not by much... It's just too much right now and I really don't want to deal with all of it... I really wish I didn't have to work tomorrow (and next week, but that's more by choice than anything else)... But at least it's Friday!
Today was a good day at work, one of the few enjoyable ones I've had actually. Ecology went off without a hitch and I was able to actually help some students during those classes. My math class was awesome, but it usually is so nothing new there. Afterschool was WONDERFUL! Students, lots of students, coming into afterschool tutoring, actually doing their homework and asking for help! And I helped someone in Living Environment which is basically Bio and I was able to explain it well and he understood! Not to mention I was also able to help some other kids in math! It was our most productive session yet with both tutors completely occupied for the entire time. It's days like this that make me really want to be a teacher. It was just so fulfilling, knowing you made a difference and that you're helping people understand stuff they didn't before. I really hope we'll continue having more awesome days like today... I realize tomorrow it probably won't happen since it will be Friday but still... And next week is Spring Break so I think I might be the only one around next week for afterschool work and I really don't want the momentum to just die because we're understaffed... :\ Oh well, we'll see how things go.
This was nicer... I was able to get my mind off that horrible assignment and not be so distraught over it by talking about something more enjoyable... I feel a little bit calmer now which is good... And just in time for me to go to bed. I have to get up in like eight hours so now is probably a good time to turn in...
edit x1: Yay! She allowed me to resubmit the homework!!! God, I hope I got it right this time... The sad thing is even though I got the program to work, I'm not sure I did it the right way and it would be very embarrassing if after all this, I still did it incorrectly... :\ Either way, what is important is her input because I feel most of the time I'm just bumbling around in Programming so knowing if I'm doing something wrong or not helps a lot in my studying... Anyway, I'm just really glad she allowed it this one time. I'm going to be so paranoid about my attachments from now on...
And that's when I started to get this nagging feeling that something was very wrong... I went and downloaded my own attachment to the grader and it was as I suspected. I sent her the wrong file. I sent her the file that I was working on that night where I was so freaking frustrated with it and not the one that I continued to work on the next day and was able to fix the previous problems. Ugh, I'm so stupid! The problem was that I didn't even realize there was another file! I added it to a new workspace but I guess that caused it to be saved under the new workspace... And for some odd reason, even though JCreator sees it, I can't through the harddrive... That folder just doesn't exist, just the old one. So no wonder I didn't know!
I emailed the grader back, explaining things and I asked if I could resubmit it. I realize it's a bit of a stretch, but who knows if you don't ask? Besides, I really did spend a lot of time working on that damn thing! I want full credit! I wasted hours of my life trying to figure it out and I was really ecstatic when I actually got it to work that I immediately went to send it in... Who would have thought it would turn out to be this horrible mess?
I mean I realize one point is not all that much and it's only homework along a whole line of homeworks but still... I saw what program I actually sent her -- it was pitiful and so obviously half-done and I really don't want the grader thinking that I would allow something like that to be sent to her. It didn't even work for god's sake! :( It's so sad... And it's basically Spring Break so I can't even talk to my professor about this... :(
What a horrible way to top off this horrible week... And here I thought things were finally getting better.... T_T God, I'm really broken up about this... I wonder if it's not just the stress of everything right now or it's just PMSing. Probably both because something like this should bring me to tears and I just really want to bawl right now... T_T Life sucks...
Okay, gotta think good thoughts. Nine cent cabbage. Ninety-nine cents for a three pound bag of red potatoes. Going to the aquarium this weekend. Going to Book Off this weekend and buying myself some nice manga. Getting paid tomorrow. Spring Break, no classes, lots of sleep. *breathes deeply* I will not let this get me down.
Okay, feeling a bit better now but not by much... It's just too much right now and I really don't want to deal with all of it... I really wish I didn't have to work tomorrow (and next week, but that's more by choice than anything else)... But at least it's Friday!
Today was a good day at work, one of the few enjoyable ones I've had actually. Ecology went off without a hitch and I was able to actually help some students during those classes. My math class was awesome, but it usually is so nothing new there. Afterschool was WONDERFUL! Students, lots of students, coming into afterschool tutoring, actually doing their homework and asking for help! And I helped someone in Living Environment which is basically Bio and I was able to explain it well and he understood! Not to mention I was also able to help some other kids in math! It was our most productive session yet with both tutors completely occupied for the entire time. It's days like this that make me really want to be a teacher. It was just so fulfilling, knowing you made a difference and that you're helping people understand stuff they didn't before. I really hope we'll continue having more awesome days like today... I realize tomorrow it probably won't happen since it will be Friday but still... And next week is Spring Break so I think I might be the only one around next week for afterschool work and I really don't want the momentum to just die because we're understaffed... :\ Oh well, we'll see how things go.
This was nicer... I was able to get my mind off that horrible assignment and not be so distraught over it by talking about something more enjoyable... I feel a little bit calmer now which is good... And just in time for me to go to bed. I have to get up in like eight hours so now is probably a good time to turn in...
edit x1: Yay! She allowed me to resubmit the homework!!! God, I hope I got it right this time... The sad thing is even though I got the program to work, I'm not sure I did it the right way and it would be very embarrassing if after all this, I still did it incorrectly... :\ Either way, what is important is her input because I feel most of the time I'm just bumbling around in Programming so knowing if I'm doing something wrong or not helps a lot in my studying... Anyway, I'm just really glad she allowed it this one time. I'm going to be so paranoid about my attachments from now on...