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[sherryillk]

gah...

Diana's being mean to me...

And I'm depressed that she has no faith in me...

I just don't understand. "Attitude" she says? I just said I couldn't help her. Really, this is the sort of thing she needs to do on her own. If she doesn't do it herself, she'll never be able to do it. I just didn't think she would screw it up so badly!

gah...

I mean seriously, I was a bumbling idiot too. I don't even remember what I did last year. But I did it. With our parents. She should have been able to do it too. And if she didn't know, she should have figured something out to put down. I mean geez, if you're gonna do something, at least let the responsibility be on you and not pushed onto others. I admit, I have no clue. How the hell is a person who doesn't have a clue herself help someone else? I just don't get it...

And blaming me...Geez, it's her fault! Millions of people do this every year, she should have been able to do it. Dealing with our parents' "attitude" (I swear, she's in love with this word nowadays) is just part of it.

Next year she'll be doing it all herself. What is gonna do then?

And of course, she's no help to me either. "I screwed myself so I want to screw you too", ka?

...

Sherry is sad. I would have so scanned those papers for her! Sherry is a happy-go-lucky type of person who takes that sort of responsibility very seriously. And she tells me "ha^1000"... That was cruel...

There are just some things that are important in this world. You don't mess with those things cause all it'll do is cause really big problems. I would call this one of those things...

God, I just can't get over it. She said "ha^1000"! That hurts! A lot! My sister has no faith in me.

Ah, I guess I deserved it. I should have at least tried even though I didn't know anything... It's just hard, you know? You really have to be there with the other person with all those papers with you in order for you to do it. I can't help if I can't see them...

Maybe I should ask Kent? I thought Diana was marginally more reliable than Kent but now... Kent at least makes somewhat of an effort and he's still young enough to do it...

Oh, did I mention Diana said "I don't care"? And she told me to "Shut up"?

God, I just want to crawl into a hole and...

God... This is such a big deal!!! Why the hell has it got me so damn upset?! I'm too emotional right now for something like this!!! Crying for something like this is just too stupid...

I bet it's the whole PMS thing. I ALWAYS become sad and depressed right before a period. I hate being a girl.

So does that mean what I'm feeling right now is all because of the PMS? I'm trying to think rationally here but I just feel really hurt and sad right now. And the more I think about it, the more upset I get and the more tears are coming out of my eyes...

Diana! You bitch! Did you have to send me spiralling down like this! I bet my roommate thinks I'm crazy sitting at a computer, typing furiously with tears running down her face...

Ah, whatever. This usually only lasts a day, two at most for me. Hopefully I'll be okay once I've slept on it.

Seriously, it's not that big of a deal if I tell myself that I know it's that big of a deal. I know this. But damn it, I just don't feel like it right now. This stupid PMS thing is just projecting and enhancing my already frayed feelings...

I really, really, really, REALLY hate being a girl...

Comments

[d-moonchild.livejournal.com]

No clue what's this all about but right now I'd advise you to go and watch/read something. When I am upset about RL and don't feel like wallowing in self-pity (although this can be entertaining too), I distract myself with fictional troubles because it is something I choose to be upset with, hence it feels less humiliating to myself.