Gah...

My eyes hurt from reading a chapter of The Soviet Political Mind by Robert Tucker about what makes a totalitarian leader. I think the only thing I got from it was a mix of crazy personalities, paranoia, terror, beauracracy and something. Gah, all I want to do is sleep.

And I think Michelle took my extra tube of toothpaste when she left. And all my chicken stock. *beep* *beep* *beeeepppp* Now I have to buy toothpaste tomorrow. Sometime. After lab? Gah.

Going to sleep now. Can't stay up. Feeling like absolute shit. I hadn't enough sleep yesterday and I'm all maxed out today so... Oyasumi.

My MVP Valentine

This show is messed up. Very messy, something I really hate having to deal with since it inevitably means lots of emotional roller coasters that go all over the place that I'll have to deal with until we get to a hopefully happy ending.

But I will endeavor to watch this show regardless.

Needless to say, this is basically the Taiwanese take on Slam Dunk with a twist. You have the main character (nicknamed Rukawa Kaede) who is in trying to get to the championship game (basketball) accidently runs over and paralyzes his main rival's sister who was on her way to cello competition. Said girl falls in love with our main character but the main character is already in love with the manager of his basketball team. And said manager is of course being pursued by a rich, handsome young man who plays basketball as well. And the paralyzed sister of the main character's rival (bear with me since I haven't seen enough to know names yet) is also evil as she schemes to break up the main character and the manager, using her brother (main character's rival, nicknamed "Ice Man"). Ice Man is having his own troubles as well since he basically left the championship game to go to his sister in the hospital and thus caused his team to lose.

And Ice Man's coach -- no one is spared in this. Mr. Coach is in the middle of a divorce and because of a deal he's made with his wife, he's lost custody of his son as well since he couldn't win the championship. And also, he's being forced to resign since his team lost. Nice.

So yeah, a lot of unhappiness. Hopefully this will be worth it and people end up happy.

I won't know until I finish downloading it and watching it, AFTER my midterm.

Oh, and I got the topics for my Jap art class midterm essay. *laughs* We'll see how well I can BS in that. But still 8 pages...gah, that's long for a midterm.

Back to bio studying! Yatta! Right.

I'm too spineless...

I leave the room to study and she turns on the TV louder? I can still hear the TV out there you know. *makes a face*

She leaves the room to study and I turn my music lower. And if I'm watching something, I put on headphones.

And here I've been feeling bad about the fact that I had my music on (even on low) when she was studying for her midterm.

We have no communication. Though we're not two strangers, I don't feel all that comfortable around her since I feel like her opinion of me isn't very high. She's never said it but we have lots of uncomfortable silences. And many comfortable ones. Generally, there are days where we've only said "hi" to each other.

If I weren't a total coward, I would say something. Instead, I'm venting myself on my LJ and procrastinating on my studying.

Okay, I'm going back to studying. I'm gonna finish taking notes on the chapter, take a shower and read two or three chapters without taking notes. And then hopefully get some Chem homework done. Gah. Stupid Chem problem set due on the SAME day as the bio midterm. Halpin hates us. I think I'm gonna study late tonight, skip Chem lecture tomorrow, wake up after about 8 hours of sleep and study some more since I don't have class until 2 PM. And then class, then an hour at the library with more studying and then lab. I have an AI meeting tomorrow *makes a face* but I might skip since it's at 7 and I usually get out of lab at 6:30-7. I want as much time to work on studying as I can. I have to go over Browosky's chapters (since he's crazy and does stupid facts), go through the exam from last year (must get those printed out tomorrow!), go through the notes on Fungi and go through everything else that we've covered so far. Gah. Tomorrow is a big review day. Today is a remembering and redoing day. Tomorrow is review of everything I've done so far.

And I'll probably skip lab lecture again. Need sleep and study time. :( My world culture: recitation is suffering so badly now... I'm barely caught up on the reading and tomorrow we're gonna try and review and I know nothing. :(

Okay, must study now. Study. Study. Study! And then after this exam...Sleep and 5566 love.