God damn it...

Okay, I admit it. Maaya Sakamoto isn't that bad.

I was terribly biased against her and her music but she really isn't that bad.

Especially now that I have a song of hers that I actually like listening to. Damn Wolf's Rain for having such enchanting, beautiful music. Damn them, damn them. I should be studying right now. My test is in an hour and I have no idea what the term "chinovik" has to do with anything at all. They were a class of people in Russia. What the hell are the significance of them? I don't freaking know. They were like the nomenklatura, that's all I can think of but that's not gonna take up an entire page of info. Damn.

I hate NEP. I think I finally understand it but...

And Trotsky. And Tomsky. And Bukharin. I always mix them up. And then there's Ryokov and Kerensky. And Kirov. And, and, and... Why the hell are there so many people???

And events! Feburary Revolution -- women and soldiers.

July Days - Kronstadt

October - Bolshevik coup

And I'm sure there was this General in there who attempted a coup too... God damn it... A country does need such a complex history! It makes it harder for students like me to study it. :( There's just sooo much going on...

Good god, if they do the personality cults, I'm screwed. Or Lenin or Stalin. They're too huge. You can write whole papers on them, not a really long paragraph.

Sherry is screwed.

Okay, the quote about the state growing fat and the people growing lean, I can't seem to find it anywhere!!! I saw in two different places last night! :( It's about Stalin right? And his collectivization right?

I don't know... :(

edit x1: Forget what I said about Maaya Sakamoto. I was never against her. It was Ayumi Hamasaki that I had a bias against. I just mixed the two up since I'm pretty sure she sang Yubiwa, the first anime song I had ever listened to and liked (even before I liked anime). So yeah, I don't hate her.

Odd...

I have the strange urge to hide under my desk.

edit x1: Okay that urge to put myself out of sight in a tiny space has grown tenfold.

edit x2: What is wrong with me? I don't understand it... I'm just a little...raw right now. Gah...