Packing sucks ass

I hate packing. I really hate packing. It takes so damn long and I always seem to have way more stuff than I have room for... Right now, I'm worried about my luggage being over 50 lbs... I have a lot of textbooks that I want to take back home (because I can't fit them into the College Boxes' boxes) and they're heavy... That's also the corresponding notebooks... Man, I really should have taken them home sooner... Now I have so many and they're really heavy! I'm even sneaking a few onto my carry-on... It's going to be heavy... I'm even putting my laptop into my backpack with my textbooks so I can have one more carry-on. T_T My poor Bear-chan is stuffed into a bag right now and I still don't know if all my bedding is going to fit into the box... I think I might have to chuck my pillow to make it fit.

I'm a bit sad to be getting rid of my pillow (maybe, not definite yet since I might be able to make it fit by squishing the hell out of it) but I think it's okay... It's pretty mangled right now and the support that used to be there isn't anymore so I think I'm justified to get a new one for next year...

Still, I hate throwing things away when they're still useable, albeit somewhat diminished from how they were in the beginning... I've thrown away so much stuff today -- it was all really sad. And it just because I didn't have enough room... :(

I really have too much crap. Next Christmas, I'm going to bring the rest of it back so I don't have this freaking problem in the spring...

Ugh, I feel icky... I think I must have found at least a whole family of dustbunnies... I'm going to take a shower, take a nap and then hunt for food when I get up... That sounds about good... *sigh*

Me and my stupid memory

Well, I've mostly finished packing and I'm clean. I've eaten which is a good thing since I basically was surviving on Pocky... Man, what did I eat yesterday night? o.O I have no idea... Oh wait, I made pasta. Thank god I ate something or else I would have expired today...

Now that I've eaten, I'm totally exhausted due to the whole not having eaten for like half a day and my blood sugar being really low and now it's shot back up to real high... *yawns* I almost want to take a nap but I think I'll just go to sleep early today instead... I didn't get a lot of sleep because of my Econ final but I think I did okay on it... Hopefully at least since I'm not quite sure about it... I spent like half the exam trying to figure out if wage was higher than the MFC for a monosonist and I knew it was false but for the life of me, I couldn't figure it out. At the end, I think I managed something vaguely reasonable. *shrugs* I was just happy to get it right.

My studying last night was interrupted for about 40 minutes by a late night fire alarm. It was about 1:15 AM and I heard the bells of the fire alarm followed by the fire alarm and I really didn't want to leave. I was tempted to just leave with my shorts and T-shirt on and in my slippers but I knew I couldn't do that. So I got into some pants, put on shoes and a coat on and I left like that. Thankfully, I was nice and bundled up because it was a bit chilly out there. Me, I was in like three layers (I had a shawl/sweater thing on as well) so I was nice and warm.

Right now I'm freaking out just a little bit. Just a little. I have like the worst memory ever -- I forget things as quickly as they come to me. It's like oh, I notice something and then a minute later, I'll be scratching my head trying to figure it out. It's rather annoying and today is the same way. Last night, I was wearing my yellow shawl/sweater thing over my T-shirt and under my coat and I remember taking it off when I got back because I was really warm. I don't think I saw it today as I was packing. It just came to me to wonder about its whereabouts. While I'm not too fond of the style (it's seriously senior citizen-like), it's warm and I wear it all the time when I'm just a bit chilly and I don't want to put something more on. I don't know where it is! I hope I packed it away but I don't know for sure... :( But I've looked all around in my room and in my dorm and I can't find it at all so it has to be packed away... I mean there aren't that many places that it could go... :\

It would be so much easier to pinpoint its location and to see if it's really in the room or not if my freaking roommate was a bit neater. I don't understand the way she seems to like making a mess of our room. Her crap is just everywhere, piled on haphazardly and everything in a disarray... I can't stand it and it's so freaking hard to navigate in. I'm always so scared to step on something important because she has a tendency to put things on the floor...

Oh my god, just rifling through her big pile of shoes in the closet has turned up my snow boots! *gaps* I could have left them here! Now I'm really worried about other things that I might be missing... T_T So much stuff, can't find them all... *dies*

I hate this, I really do. I hate, hate, hate this. I wish I knew where my yellow shawl is. I wish I knew I found everything that is mine and have it boxed up... God, now I'm getting just a bit depressed... :(

God, I'm tired... I just want to go to sleep and forget about this forever... I wanna go home now... :(

Fuck, something might be wrong with College Boxes... Just fucking great. *wants this to be over now*

I packed my TV so I can't watch anything... I think I'm going to go and see if I can find a free TV lounge and see if I can't watch some TV. Hopefully most people are gone by now...