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Even more GA talk
Feb. 11th, 2009 06:03 amGod, I hate Meredith. I hate Meredith so, so, so much. It's crazy because even before I started watching the show, I knew I wouldn't like her so I never watched the show. But now that I'm watching it, I can't believe how much more I hate her. I don't know how much more of her I can take especially since it's her show. It's all about her. And the creator and writers of the show are so clearly pushing for MerDer that it makes me sick. I don't know how I'm going to take dealing with Addison not being married to Derek. They divorce eventually and while I want to see it, I don't at the same time.
I'm such an Addison fan. That's the problem. I really, really love Addison. I would totally fangirl her like crazy and I think I might have a slight crush on her. It's what you feel for that one person in a pairing that you really, really like -- the one that you gravitate more towards. For me, it's been Rodney from SGA, Daniel from SG-1, Methos from HL, etc., etc. You know the one. And it's like, you know you totally would date them if you had a chance because they just seem so awesome. For GA, it's Addison. I am totally in love with her character and I feel like I would totally date her if I had the chance. It's strange because I don't read het, I don't do girls so this is all out of left field for me. And then there's the fact that I'm a girl myself but that's not really that big of a deal since I've always thought of myself as more open than anything else. I just haven't had an incident that fully lands me into the bisexual category. But if I'm going to be using that as my criteria for basing my sexuality, I guess I have nothing that lands me in any of the sexual categories -- gay, hetero, bi, (transsexual?)... Whatever.
So, I've gotten to the bomb story of GA, episodes 16 and 17 of season two. Meredith is holding her hand on the bomb and Derek is right next door with Bailey's husband and all I can think of is god, how Addison is feeling right now. Her husband refuses to leave and he probably isn't even thinking of his wife right at that point. He's probably thinking of Meredith, his ex-girlfriend who has her hand on the bomb and I can't help but feel that this isn't fair. I don't want to watch it and I do.
The problem is that even though I really like Addison, I really like Addison with Derek. I like the fact that they've been together for 11 years and still feel something for each other, enough to try and make their marriage work. I like the idea that they're at the top of their fields, heads of their departments, equals, the power couple. I know they have problems and I know they've ultimately divorced but I'm living in fanficland where stuff like that doesn't mean they can't get back together.
What hurts is seeing all the proof and evidence that they keep shoving down our throats about how Derek can't get Meredith out of his head and vice versa. How they're so meant to be. I'm sorry, but whenever I see them together, I keep on thinking, hey, it's a parent with a kid. It's like that with all the attendings and all the interns. Parents who know everything, know better, leading the little kiddies and teaching them to grow up. I just can't see Meredith and Derek together. And he's going to propose! God, Thursday is going to suck. It's going to hurt and it's going to suck and if I have to see them propose, I'm going to gag.
Although seriously, this show is going to go for seven seasons and they're going to be married for two of those? How is that going to work? *makes a face* They have to break up somehow. Please, let them break up. I have a feeling Shonda will never, ever, ever let that happen because she is an unashamed MerDer shipper and considering she created the damn universe, I don't see her ever letting the two of them ever break apart. But I want it so badly. I'm not even watching the show and still I'm so emotionally invested in these characters of a show I don't really watch.
Right now I'm trying to get through the second season. I'm streaming it because I just don't want to download it. I can't wait for it to finish downloading even if it'll take a day or two for a season and I just don't think I can invest that much effort and even more of myself into this show by committing to saving it on my hard drive. It's strange, I know, but that's how I feel. After the second season, I might try and do the third season but I feel like it'll hurt so much more seeing them divorce. And seeing Derek get together with Meredith. *gags* Hell, just getting through season two will suck because I don't want to see that prom episode, I really don't but I feel like I have to. As for season three, I want to watch it for Addison but at the same time, I don't want to see her being chased by Mark and I don't want to see Addie lose her confidence. I want my Addek, and I want it badly.
But in the end, I think I'll have to deal with it the best I can because I'll definitely succumb eventually. I just love Addie that much.
God, doomed pairings that has already died... I really should have known better. Fanfics, I've got to ply myself with a billion fanfics to right the wrong that I see coming up. I can only deny it for so long, right?
I'm such an Addison fan. That's the problem. I really, really love Addison. I would totally fangirl her like crazy and I think I might have a slight crush on her. It's what you feel for that one person in a pairing that you really, really like -- the one that you gravitate more towards. For me, it's been Rodney from SGA, Daniel from SG-1, Methos from HL, etc., etc. You know the one. And it's like, you know you totally would date them if you had a chance because they just seem so awesome. For GA, it's Addison. I am totally in love with her character and I feel like I would totally date her if I had the chance. It's strange because I don't read het, I don't do girls so this is all out of left field for me. And then there's the fact that I'm a girl myself but that's not really that big of a deal since I've always thought of myself as more open than anything else. I just haven't had an incident that fully lands me into the bisexual category. But if I'm going to be using that as my criteria for basing my sexuality, I guess I have nothing that lands me in any of the sexual categories -- gay, hetero, bi, (transsexual?)... Whatever.
So, I've gotten to the bomb story of GA, episodes 16 and 17 of season two. Meredith is holding her hand on the bomb and Derek is right next door with Bailey's husband and all I can think of is god, how Addison is feeling right now. Her husband refuses to leave and he probably isn't even thinking of his wife right at that point. He's probably thinking of Meredith, his ex-girlfriend who has her hand on the bomb and I can't help but feel that this isn't fair. I don't want to watch it and I do.
The problem is that even though I really like Addison, I really like Addison with Derek. I like the fact that they've been together for 11 years and still feel something for each other, enough to try and make their marriage work. I like the idea that they're at the top of their fields, heads of their departments, equals, the power couple. I know they have problems and I know they've ultimately divorced but I'm living in fanficland where stuff like that doesn't mean they can't get back together.
What hurts is seeing all the proof and evidence that they keep shoving down our throats about how Derek can't get Meredith out of his head and vice versa. How they're so meant to be. I'm sorry, but whenever I see them together, I keep on thinking, hey, it's a parent with a kid. It's like that with all the attendings and all the interns. Parents who know everything, know better, leading the little kiddies and teaching them to grow up. I just can't see Meredith and Derek together. And he's going to propose! God, Thursday is going to suck. It's going to hurt and it's going to suck and if I have to see them propose, I'm going to gag.
Although seriously, this show is going to go for seven seasons and they're going to be married for two of those? How is that going to work? *makes a face* They have to break up somehow. Please, let them break up. I have a feeling Shonda will never, ever, ever let that happen because she is an unashamed MerDer shipper and considering she created the damn universe, I don't see her ever letting the two of them ever break apart. But I want it so badly. I'm not even watching the show and still I'm so emotionally invested in these characters of a show I don't really watch.
Right now I'm trying to get through the second season. I'm streaming it because I just don't want to download it. I can't wait for it to finish downloading even if it'll take a day or two for a season and I just don't think I can invest that much effort and even more of myself into this show by committing to saving it on my hard drive. It's strange, I know, but that's how I feel. After the second season, I might try and do the third season but I feel like it'll hurt so much more seeing them divorce. And seeing Derek get together with Meredith. *gags* Hell, just getting through season two will suck because I don't want to see that prom episode, I really don't but I feel like I have to. As for season three, I want to watch it for Addison but at the same time, I don't want to see her being chased by Mark and I don't want to see Addie lose her confidence. I want my Addek, and I want it badly.
But in the end, I think I'll have to deal with it the best I can because I'll definitely succumb eventually. I just love Addie that much.
God, doomed pairings that has already died... I really should have known better. Fanfics, I've got to ply myself with a billion fanfics to right the wrong that I see coming up. I can only deny it for so long, right?
