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sherryillkGod, even though it's been hours since I discovered those nasty posts on Kimeru's BBS, I'm still going "WTF?! And WHY?!"
I hate this sort of stuff, I really do. It makes me feel like I'm in a terrible position because I don't know where I should stand on the issues. I mean it was stupid of them to post stuff like that on Kimeru's BBS. Really, really stupid. Usually I'd avoid calling fans that but this time... Last time when they posted about downloading his songs, I was like "wow, they should have known better" but for me idiocy is something that can be forgiven.
But being mean, that is unforgivable. To publicly bash other fans on an idol's BBS -- what the hell were they thinking? I'm sure they feel hurt and frustrated and while I don't know if it's justified or not, I'm sure they have these feelings. Therefore, in my mind, such feelings are real and valid. I don't know if it was because of some misunderstanding that they came to be or if there were really events where they've been snubbed that have precipitated them but either way, they have this idea that there are people holding out on them. And somehow they've translated to this be the whole "western fandom." T_T
As someone who participates in Kimeru's western fandom, that makes me feel terrible! I know I'm not a BNF (nor would I ever aspire to be if this is the sort of stuff that happens by being one) but still, it makes me wonder if I've ever did anything they've said we've done... Have I been cold to other fans, told them to find stuff themselves? I've always thought of myself as a fan unto herself -- I like Kimeru and while I am part of a collective that likes Kimeru, I've never defined myself as someone as part of the collective. I share media, and I never lock those posts but at the same time, I don't go announcing to the world that I'm currently sharing various stuff... The way I see is if they find my downloads, find, go ahead and download, that's what they're there for, but it's not like I'm offering stuff to the world at large either. I have no desire to be the person who shares stuff but I will share if asked, you know? I've just never been asked...
Usually I avoid these situations but last night... There were just so many things that were wrong -- they posted something that really had nothing to do with Kimeru to Kimeru, they gave Kimeru a bad impression of his fans, they publicly bashed other fans... It was just malicious and I can never forgive mean people. I know this fandom is sometimes iffy to be in -- I've seen it, I've felt it, but still, over all it's not terrible. I've seen worse stuff in other fandoms and while I would have liked my precious Kimeru fandom to stay untainted, it's a bit too much to hope that it'll come out unscathed in regular fannish stuff. But to involve Kimeru? Ugh, it really should be done elsewhere. You can bash all you want but do it on your own journal. I mean you shouldn't be bashing at all but if you really need to, do it in a place where you can bash all you want without consequences with like minded people.
This whole radio thing... I really have to wonder about it. Me, I don't know anything about the radio shows. And frankly, I don't really have a desire to listen to them, much less have copies of them. When I first saw "radio," my first thoughts were that it was awfully close to the post in KOL about Kimeru's radio show so I couldn't help but wonder if was all coincidental... *shrugs* I never said anything on that post because as far as I knew, there were no ways to listen to Kimeru's radio show. If I'm wrong on that, sorry, but that just proves how clueless I am about it all...
Now, I really am a bit afraid to post anything in English on Kimeru's BBS. I can try Japanese but it'll be so incredibly bad since my vocabulary is still really limited but I can try... I just don't want to make myself look like a complete fool while doing it. And doing it in English... I might have to wait a few days, separate myself away from those people. I don't want to be thought of as anything but just a Kimeru fan expressing how much she loved the new releases. But despite the fact that I might not talk about anything relating to those earlier posts, the mere fact that it's in English makes me think it'll be hard for anyone to separate the connection. So maybe I won't post anything now... I don't know.
Whatever, this has gotten me down for too long. Kimeru's CD and DVD arrived yesterday so I should be happy still. And watching the live of The Pleasure of Love makes it so much easier to bear! Look at the balloons! The balloons! And of Kimeru's face as he plays with them! If that's not happiness, I don't know what is, and Kimeru does happiness so well! I love it when he pushes them back -- absolutely brilliant. I live for Kimeru's smile and you get to see it so often in The Pleasure of Love. *hearts*
Now, see for yourself how wonderful balloons and Kimeru is!
The Pleasure of Love (live)
I will have COLOR ripped too because crying!Kimeru is just so much love but later... If I could, I would rip it all but that would require a bit too many MBs that my laptop currently doesn't have. ^^;;; Too many new anime I'm following this season...
edit x1: Kimeru - COLOR (live)
edit x2: I suck at making links.
edit x3: I doubly suck at links.
edit x4: After three times, finally got it right.
I hate this sort of stuff, I really do. It makes me feel like I'm in a terrible position because I don't know where I should stand on the issues. I mean it was stupid of them to post stuff like that on Kimeru's BBS. Really, really stupid. Usually I'd avoid calling fans that but this time... Last time when they posted about downloading his songs, I was like "wow, they should have known better" but for me idiocy is something that can be forgiven.
But being mean, that is unforgivable. To publicly bash other fans on an idol's BBS -- what the hell were they thinking? I'm sure they feel hurt and frustrated and while I don't know if it's justified or not, I'm sure they have these feelings. Therefore, in my mind, such feelings are real and valid. I don't know if it was because of some misunderstanding that they came to be or if there were really events where they've been snubbed that have precipitated them but either way, they have this idea that there are people holding out on them. And somehow they've translated to this be the whole "western fandom." T_T
As someone who participates in Kimeru's western fandom, that makes me feel terrible! I know I'm not a BNF (nor would I ever aspire to be if this is the sort of stuff that happens by being one) but still, it makes me wonder if I've ever did anything they've said we've done... Have I been cold to other fans, told them to find stuff themselves? I've always thought of myself as a fan unto herself -- I like Kimeru and while I am part of a collective that likes Kimeru, I've never defined myself as someone as part of the collective. I share media, and I never lock those posts but at the same time, I don't go announcing to the world that I'm currently sharing various stuff... The way I see is if they find my downloads, find, go ahead and download, that's what they're there for, but it's not like I'm offering stuff to the world at large either. I have no desire to be the person who shares stuff but I will share if asked, you know? I've just never been asked...
Usually I avoid these situations but last night... There were just so many things that were wrong -- they posted something that really had nothing to do with Kimeru to Kimeru, they gave Kimeru a bad impression of his fans, they publicly bashed other fans... It was just malicious and I can never forgive mean people. I know this fandom is sometimes iffy to be in -- I've seen it, I've felt it, but still, over all it's not terrible. I've seen worse stuff in other fandoms and while I would have liked my precious Kimeru fandom to stay untainted, it's a bit too much to hope that it'll come out unscathed in regular fannish stuff. But to involve Kimeru? Ugh, it really should be done elsewhere. You can bash all you want but do it on your own journal. I mean you shouldn't be bashing at all but if you really need to, do it in a place where you can bash all you want without consequences with like minded people.
This whole radio thing... I really have to wonder about it. Me, I don't know anything about the radio shows. And frankly, I don't really have a desire to listen to them, much less have copies of them. When I first saw "radio," my first thoughts were that it was awfully close to the post in KOL about Kimeru's radio show so I couldn't help but wonder if was all coincidental... *shrugs* I never said anything on that post because as far as I knew, there were no ways to listen to Kimeru's radio show. If I'm wrong on that, sorry, but that just proves how clueless I am about it all...
Now, I really am a bit afraid to post anything in English on Kimeru's BBS. I can try Japanese but it'll be so incredibly bad since my vocabulary is still really limited but I can try... I just don't want to make myself look like a complete fool while doing it. And doing it in English... I might have to wait a few days, separate myself away from those people. I don't want to be thought of as anything but just a Kimeru fan expressing how much she loved the new releases. But despite the fact that I might not talk about anything relating to those earlier posts, the mere fact that it's in English makes me think it'll be hard for anyone to separate the connection. So maybe I won't post anything now... I don't know.
Whatever, this has gotten me down for too long. Kimeru's CD and DVD arrived yesterday so I should be happy still. And watching the live of The Pleasure of Love makes it so much easier to bear! Look at the balloons! The balloons! And of Kimeru's face as he plays with them! If that's not happiness, I don't know what is, and Kimeru does happiness so well! I love it when he pushes them back -- absolutely brilliant. I live for Kimeru's smile and you get to see it so often in The Pleasure of Love. *hearts*
Now, see for yourself how wonderful balloons and Kimeru is!
The Pleasure of Love (live)
I will have COLOR ripped too because crying!Kimeru is just so much love but later... If I could, I would rip it all but that would require a bit too many MBs that my laptop currently doesn't have. ^^;;; Too many new anime I'm following this season...
edit x1: Kimeru - COLOR (live)
edit x2: I suck at making links.
edit x3: I doubly suck at links.
edit x4: After three times, finally got it right.
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on 2006-04-23 10:25 pm (UTC)NYU downloads stuff from its homepages at like... 1,000 kb/sec. WOW.
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on 2006-04-23 11:07 pm (UTC)And yeah, the homepages is like wicked fast. That's why I love hosting stuff on it. If only it didn't have such a low limit... :(
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on 2006-04-24 04:44 am (UTC)by the way, are you going to the sakura festival?
http://www.bbg.org/exp/cherries/sakura.html
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on 2006-04-24 04:51 am (UTC)The DVD wasn't that bad from what I remember... It was like less than $40... But it was more than his other DVDs too...
And wasn't the balloons incredibly cool. Me, I just like seeing Kimeru smile. :)
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on 2006-04-24 04:30 am (UTC)no subject
on 2006-04-24 04:51 am (UTC)