The things you find on Google...
Jul. 11th, 2007 09:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sherryillkWoah, I wrote a Buffy fic before?! I'm so shocked... Apparently I participated in an Buffy Lyric Wheel. God, how nostalgic is that? I wonder if people do Lyric Wheels any more? Hmm...
Anyway, I was browsing through some of the referrals to my site and found a search for "Jun Rui Chen" which was odd in itself. I got curious as to what might be out there by searching using that name so I did it myself. And that's where I found the fic. Apparently, it's called "Lost" and I have no recollection of this story at all! Did I really write it? It's only been four years so I can't believe it's slipped my mind so quickly...
I have to admit, I ran away from the story once I found it again just now. I skimmed through a little bit (very little, read about two lines total) but that's about it. I hate my writing and if I could, I would rewrite history so I've never written anything. Although, doing that, I probably would not have started talking to Masha and that would kinda suck since that's certainly the best online friendship that I have and probably will ever have. Speaking of Masha, she's been gone for nearly a week now and I'm getting a bit lonely... :( Until she went away on vacation and I stopped writing her every single day (most of the time anyway), I never really realized how little mail I actually get. Sure, it's only one letter a day but I can count on it and writing her back usually takes quite a bit so it's like a fixed part of my daily life now that we've been doing for years upon years...
Okay, back onto the story. I don't know what to do about it. Should I read it? Should I not? It has an OC in it! Ew! I can't believe I did that... I don't think I can stomach it very well. And since it's a short piece (I think LW entries had a word limit back then, right?), I can't believe I also switched POVs! I hope there was some sort of divider and not an abrupt shift. I hate that sort of thing in other people's stories so to have it in my own will definitely make me cringe... *sigh* Maybe I should avoid it for a while? Work my way into reading it again? Gah, I really just want to hide from it...run far, far away and hide until it goes away and I forget it again...
Anyway, I was browsing through some of the referrals to my site and found a search for "Jun Rui Chen" which was odd in itself. I got curious as to what might be out there by searching using that name so I did it myself. And that's where I found the fic. Apparently, it's called "Lost" and I have no recollection of this story at all! Did I really write it? It's only been four years so I can't believe it's slipped my mind so quickly...
I have to admit, I ran away from the story once I found it again just now. I skimmed through a little bit (very little, read about two lines total) but that's about it. I hate my writing and if I could, I would rewrite history so I've never written anything. Although, doing that, I probably would not have started talking to Masha and that would kinda suck since that's certainly the best online friendship that I have and probably will ever have. Speaking of Masha, she's been gone for nearly a week now and I'm getting a bit lonely... :( Until she went away on vacation and I stopped writing her every single day (most of the time anyway), I never really realized how little mail I actually get. Sure, it's only one letter a day but I can count on it and writing her back usually takes quite a bit so it's like a fixed part of my daily life now that we've been doing for years upon years...
Okay, back onto the story. I don't know what to do about it. Should I read it? Should I not? It has an OC in it! Ew! I can't believe I did that... I don't think I can stomach it very well. And since it's a short piece (I think LW entries had a word limit back then, right?), I can't believe I also switched POVs! I hope there was some sort of divider and not an abrupt shift. I hate that sort of thing in other people's stories so to have it in my own will definitely make me cringe... *sigh* Maybe I should avoid it for a while? Work my way into reading it again? Gah, I really just want to hide from it...run far, far away and hide until it goes away and I forget it again...
