So yeah...
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sherryillkI don't seem to updating as much as I used to... I feel as though I have so much to say, if only to myself, and lots of things have happened that I've wanted to get down. Just comments about various things, musings, that sort of stuff but instead of getting it all down onto my LJ like I normally would do, I seem to keep it all in my head...
I feel like I'm out of control of my life. I'm in my senior year, I'm not sure what I want to do or what I should be doing... I think I'm going to take a year off in any case, see if I really want to continue on going to school. Probably get a job in a lab somewhere, maybe see if I can get them to fund a Master's degree, that sort of thing. I feel so down thinking about my real life since I've avoided it since like the beginning of my life. But now I'm 21, I'm graduating in May and I have to do something with the rest of my life... The most freaky part of everything is that the more I tutor at UNHS, the more I think I should be a teacher to at least try and get out educated kids out into society. And I hate dealing with kids! And I've said since I was in elementary school that I never want to become a teacher! Gah, it's been something that I've been feeling since last year and it's very conflicting because it goes against everything that I've thought of before. Not to mention it's not exactly the best career out there and I really doubt I have the drive or passion to do it really well. *sigh*
So, stuff... My grandfather died almost three weeks ago.... He was in pretty bad shape for a while now and we knew it was going to happen pretty soon before he actually died. I flew back home for the funeral two weeks ago and I've wanted to talk about it but at the time I felt a bit too raw about it that I didn't feel comfortable talking about it at all. It just seemed wrong. That's probably one of the reasons why I avoided updating my LJ for a while -- it seemed odd to update and not talk about this big thing that happened in my life so I didn't.
It seems almost surreal that it's happened... I don't think I actually believe people can die until that happened because I've never had anyone close to my pass on before. The funeral was basically a mix between Chinese and Western traditions, some of which I hadn't experienced before. It was definitely different.
I had to miss a day's worth of classes because of it because I flew back on Monday (the actual funeral was on Saturday, I flew home Friday). When I got the airport, I found out I couldn't make my connecting flight because I was delayed in Portland for 50 minutes (it was a really tight connection). So I ended up getting stuck in Las Vegas for about seven hours. I really should have left the airport to do some sightseeing but like an scared idiot, I stayed at the airport and did nothing. It was the dinkiest airport ever. There wasn't even a bookstore! What the hell?! That was the first airport I've been in that didn't have a proper bookstore. *sigh* It did have slot machines and video poker but since I don't gamble, I didn't do that either.
I ended up getting back to New York on Tuesday morning around 7 AM. Not fun, not fun at all, especially since I had class at 9:30. In the end, I skipped it. I flew into JFK so I just took the AirTrain to Howard Beach to take the A to Fulton, which is like three streets off of Water so it was very convenient but it took like an hour so I got back to water around 8:30. I could have made it to recitation but I really didn't want to at all. I was tired and sleepy and I knew that if I went, I would be dead for that class as well as my Japanese one. Plus, the weekend was so busy that I really didn't have much time to prepare for it so I didn't want to make an idiot of myself so that's also why I didn't go. It was all good though -- I ended up emailing my TA and I explained my situation and I was able to make it up with the other section on Friday.
Classes are okay... I feel I'm behind because I've been feeling the urge to study for the last week. But for the most part, I don't feel lost in any class aside from Immunology. I'm going to spend this weekend trying to catch up on everything but I'm really only behind on the reading for Immunology.
The computer class is still a bore. We haven't gotten to the point where things are new so I'm feeling a bit underchallenged in that class. I mean we're learning HTML right now and it's really basic. We haven't really covered it in depth yet (haven't really learned any tags) but so far I've learned why you would use a style and how to use PuTTY to access the command line of the Unix server that our class is using. Yay. It was extremely boring, really simple, more copy and paste than anything else. I want to get to Photoshop and maybe some more cool stuff I can do with HTML and Dreamweaver, not this kiddy stuff that I already know how to do. The problem of course is that it is an introductory level course where no computer experience is needed so there are some people there who really don't know anything. But I'm not one of them. I almost wish I were so I didn't have to give my professor this bored look every single class though... :\
What else is new? Oh, the fall season started this week and I'm loving it! House was good but not as good as I had hoped it would be. Next week's episode seems to be pretty nice. Heroes was wonderful, as usual. Top Chef is having their season finale next week! I hope Hung wins. I laughed so hard when Brian got kicked out. Everyone has been saying that it all points to him winning but he's GONE!!! I didn't want him to win anyway.
Ah, what else? Oh, Journeyman seems to be pretty good and I am liking Private Practice despite not liking Grey's Anatomy. Weird, huh? Right now I'm downloading the two backstory episodes of it from Grey's Anatomy so hopefully they won't have too much on anything not relating to Addison.
Reaper and Chuck are okay, I guess. Chuck I'm having reservations about but I think Reaper will be good. Who doesn't want to watch a humorous show about a good-for-nothing who becomes a bounty hunter for souls who escaped from hell?
NUMB3RS is on right now and I think I'm right about the whole Colby-isn't-evil idea, something I'm totally happy about. I mean, Colby being a traitor? I think I OMG'ed it enough when the finale first aired.
I am missing Atlantis for this, something I agonized over. It is Stargate: Atlantis after all... But there is another showing at midnight so I won't have too long to wait before I can see it. I can wait. Besides, I think I like NUMB3RS just a little bit more than SGA right now. *shrugs* I hope this episode of NUMB3RS isn't going to be a two parter... I want really resolution. I don't want to wait another week to finish this arc off.
Gah, I'm tired... Wanna sleep...*yawns*
I feel like I'm out of control of my life. I'm in my senior year, I'm not sure what I want to do or what I should be doing... I think I'm going to take a year off in any case, see if I really want to continue on going to school. Probably get a job in a lab somewhere, maybe see if I can get them to fund a Master's degree, that sort of thing. I feel so down thinking about my real life since I've avoided it since like the beginning of my life. But now I'm 21, I'm graduating in May and I have to do something with the rest of my life... The most freaky part of everything is that the more I tutor at UNHS, the more I think I should be a teacher to at least try and get out educated kids out into society. And I hate dealing with kids! And I've said since I was in elementary school that I never want to become a teacher! Gah, it's been something that I've been feeling since last year and it's very conflicting because it goes against everything that I've thought of before. Not to mention it's not exactly the best career out there and I really doubt I have the drive or passion to do it really well. *sigh*
So, stuff... My grandfather died almost three weeks ago.... He was in pretty bad shape for a while now and we knew it was going to happen pretty soon before he actually died. I flew back home for the funeral two weeks ago and I've wanted to talk about it but at the time I felt a bit too raw about it that I didn't feel comfortable talking about it at all. It just seemed wrong. That's probably one of the reasons why I avoided updating my LJ for a while -- it seemed odd to update and not talk about this big thing that happened in my life so I didn't.
It seems almost surreal that it's happened... I don't think I actually believe people can die until that happened because I've never had anyone close to my pass on before. The funeral was basically a mix between Chinese and Western traditions, some of which I hadn't experienced before. It was definitely different.
I had to miss a day's worth of classes because of it because I flew back on Monday (the actual funeral was on Saturday, I flew home Friday). When I got the airport, I found out I couldn't make my connecting flight because I was delayed in Portland for 50 minutes (it was a really tight connection). So I ended up getting stuck in Las Vegas for about seven hours. I really should have left the airport to do some sightseeing but like an scared idiot, I stayed at the airport and did nothing. It was the dinkiest airport ever. There wasn't even a bookstore! What the hell?! That was the first airport I've been in that didn't have a proper bookstore. *sigh* It did have slot machines and video poker but since I don't gamble, I didn't do that either.
I ended up getting back to New York on Tuesday morning around 7 AM. Not fun, not fun at all, especially since I had class at 9:30. In the end, I skipped it. I flew into JFK so I just took the AirTrain to Howard Beach to take the A to Fulton, which is like three streets off of Water so it was very convenient but it took like an hour so I got back to water around 8:30. I could have made it to recitation but I really didn't want to at all. I was tired and sleepy and I knew that if I went, I would be dead for that class as well as my Japanese one. Plus, the weekend was so busy that I really didn't have much time to prepare for it so I didn't want to make an idiot of myself so that's also why I didn't go. It was all good though -- I ended up emailing my TA and I explained my situation and I was able to make it up with the other section on Friday.
Classes are okay... I feel I'm behind because I've been feeling the urge to study for the last week. But for the most part, I don't feel lost in any class aside from Immunology. I'm going to spend this weekend trying to catch up on everything but I'm really only behind on the reading for Immunology.
The computer class is still a bore. We haven't gotten to the point where things are new so I'm feeling a bit underchallenged in that class. I mean we're learning HTML right now and it's really basic. We haven't really covered it in depth yet (haven't really learned any tags) but so far I've learned why you would use a style and how to use PuTTY to access the command line of the Unix server that our class is using. Yay. It was extremely boring, really simple, more copy and paste than anything else. I want to get to Photoshop and maybe some more cool stuff I can do with HTML and Dreamweaver, not this kiddy stuff that I already know how to do. The problem of course is that it is an introductory level course where no computer experience is needed so there are some people there who really don't know anything. But I'm not one of them. I almost wish I were so I didn't have to give my professor this bored look every single class though... :\
What else is new? Oh, the fall season started this week and I'm loving it! House was good but not as good as I had hoped it would be. Next week's episode seems to be pretty nice. Heroes was wonderful, as usual. Top Chef is having their season finale next week! I hope Hung wins. I laughed so hard when Brian got kicked out. Everyone has been saying that it all points to him winning but he's GONE!!! I didn't want him to win anyway.
Ah, what else? Oh, Journeyman seems to be pretty good and I am liking Private Practice despite not liking Grey's Anatomy. Weird, huh? Right now I'm downloading the two backstory episodes of it from Grey's Anatomy so hopefully they won't have too much on anything not relating to Addison.
Reaper and Chuck are okay, I guess. Chuck I'm having reservations about but I think Reaper will be good. Who doesn't want to watch a humorous show about a good-for-nothing who becomes a bounty hunter for souls who escaped from hell?
NUMB3RS is on right now and I think I'm right about the whole Colby-isn't-evil idea, something I'm totally happy about. I mean, Colby being a traitor? I think I OMG'ed it enough when the finale first aired.
I am missing Atlantis for this, something I agonized over. It is Stargate: Atlantis after all... But there is another showing at midnight so I won't have too long to wait before I can see it. I can wait. Besides, I think I like NUMB3RS just a little bit more than SGA right now. *shrugs* I hope this episode of NUMB3RS isn't going to be a two parter... I want really resolution. I don't want to wait another week to finish this arc off.
Gah, I'm tired... Wanna sleep...*yawns*
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on 2007-09-29 04:27 am (UTC)ermm I'm assuming you mean season 3 right?
coz I haven't yet heard of season 4...
If for S3 ,re Colby
I'll keep mum so not spoil you ^__^
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on 2007-09-29 05:37 am (UTC)