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Apr. 20th, 2012 06:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It's kinda weird. Reading Kurt/Blaine fics means a lot of their fics set in the future deal with NYC and reading about the city through their eyes, through the eyes of the authors who may or may not have been to NYC before and seeing and feeling their sense of wonder makes me incredibly uneasy.
Mostly because I never felt that.
I was horribly unimpressed the entire time I was there. And I think I still am.
I was unimpressed when I went there the summer before my freshman year and it was a three day orientation. I ended up with two extra days, of which I spent mostly in Brooklyn. I remember having real sushi for the first time, eating at a sidewalk cafe in Greenwich, dim sum in Brooklyn (that's where the good stuff was at). And I remember a night-time tour of the surrounding neighborhood around the main NYU campus (location? it's not really a traditional campus, I'm still not sure what to call it even after four years there), playing Taboo in Silver, eating at Kimmel, sleeping in Weinstein, playing poker for change with the Asian guys next door with my temporary Russian roommate late at night, s'mores at Cosi... And despite that, I was underwhelmed.
And after that, when I really moved there, it just seemed to make it worse. It became a part of daily life. It became so incredibly normal and while it wasn't what I was used to, it didn't seem better or more amazing, only different. And I remained underwhelmed and unimpressed. Even after visiting all the tourist attractions, being on the Cyclone going to Astroland, doing stuff I never would have done or seen things I never would have seen...Shouldn't that have left me with a sense of wonder? Shouldn't it have been cooler? Shouldn't I have felt more affected?
Even though I saw those things, did those things, lived that life, I still feel like I missed out on it all because I didn't get the expected feelings people are supposed to get. It's all very strange. And I just feel incredibly uneasy when I think about it... It just doesn't feel right.
Mostly because I never felt that.
I was horribly unimpressed the entire time I was there. And I think I still am.
I was unimpressed when I went there the summer before my freshman year and it was a three day orientation. I ended up with two extra days, of which I spent mostly in Brooklyn. I remember having real sushi for the first time, eating at a sidewalk cafe in Greenwich, dim sum in Brooklyn (that's where the good stuff was at). And I remember a night-time tour of the surrounding neighborhood around the main NYU campus (location? it's not really a traditional campus, I'm still not sure what to call it even after four years there), playing Taboo in Silver, eating at Kimmel, sleeping in Weinstein, playing poker for change with the Asian guys next door with my temporary Russian roommate late at night, s'mores at Cosi... And despite that, I was underwhelmed.
And after that, when I really moved there, it just seemed to make it worse. It became a part of daily life. It became so incredibly normal and while it wasn't what I was used to, it didn't seem better or more amazing, only different. And I remained underwhelmed and unimpressed. Even after visiting all the tourist attractions, being on the Cyclone going to Astroland, doing stuff I never would have done or seen things I never would have seen...Shouldn't that have left me with a sense of wonder? Shouldn't it have been cooler? Shouldn't I have felt more affected?
Even though I saw those things, did those things, lived that life, I still feel like I missed out on it all because I didn't get the expected feelings people are supposed to get. It's all very strange. And I just feel incredibly uneasy when I think about it... It just doesn't feel right.
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on 2012-04-20 08:39 pm (UTC)Dim sum in NYC is kinda pitiful. It's not even that great. Slightly better than Portland, but nowhere what I've had in Vancouver. The experience was pretty much exactly the same, only long wait times. I've always wanted to do dim sum in San Francisco though -- I hear that's where it's at if you wanted dim sum in the States. Otherwise, it's Vancouver on this continent and I can tell you, it's pretty amazing.
And really, no Uniqlo? But it's so big... I remember when it first opened in NYC -- they gave out freebies on the street and I thought, what a quirky store. It was before I knew anything about it, that it was an international brand, and I thought its brand of clothing fit perfectly for the neighborhood.
See, some of them have been to NYC. I mean, sure, it's a bit different when you visit there for vacation, be it a few days or two weeks, but still, it makes some sort of impact. Unfortunately for me, the first time I was there, the main impact it made was "unimpressive" and I went from an even smaller town than Kurt and Blaine are supposed to. From what I hear, LIma has a sizable population and I came from a town that has less than 10,000 people... If you take in the entire county, I still don't think we would have a bigger population than them. But the fact that it's Ohio versus Oregon always lingers in my mind because West Coast versus Midwest has got to be a different sort of lifestyle, even if I lived in the only Republican district in the state...
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on 2012-05-09 10:53 pm (UTC)Yup, only NYC has Uniqlo in the US (they have like three shops....?). I wonder if they're planning to expand later...? Maybe other shops are keeping them out. It is surprising they don't open one in LA... Mood Fabrics has an LA location! XD;; ....
Mmmm it's hard to say, NY is pretty impressive from a "wow you can just walk around and everything's here" perspective, but I think a lot of it is just fanfic authors building it up to be dramatic. And it is definitely different to live in a place than to vacation there... (I felt that way about LA, I can't see any appeal to the place. The restaurants are great but you can only eat so many times a day, and there's no real central area for anything.) I have a friend who schooled in Hawaii for 4 years, and yeah... totally burned out on Hawaii... well, even from my time vacationing there, I'd never ever want to live there. o.O;