The habitual post before an exam...

So here, I am, half an hour away from the midterm. I don't know why I even bother eating any more; it always ends up making me feel sick.

I feel like I know stuff and at the same time like I don't. I freak out thinking about what Halpin might throw to us, what sort of curves I'm not prepared for... I know I can do secord order rate equations and activation energy. I can do mechanisms and I can do titrations. I can do equilibrium but the acids scare me... There's so much that could be on it and could go wrong...

I really don't want to take this test... I don't think I'll do that well on it... :( I just want to go home, watch Tenimyu and all the stuff I've downloaded this week and be happy... :(

Ah, I think I'm gonna look over equilbrium again.

Damn it. This just fucking sucks. I'm gonna be in such a bad mood after this... And I can't hide from it either...

Oh, surprisingly, with only five hours of sleep, I'm not doing all that badly. Wow.

Tenimyu Winter Side Fudomine

I've seen the first disk. What can I say? I'm not going to do a long, drawn out review on it. I can't do it. Really. It would be wrong to pick this one apart. I think it this was just too familiar to me. I kept thinking, "so this is how it was supposed to be" and "now if only I had seen this first" because the excitement level was just not there. It was really nice hearing Kotaroh's voice again -- really, really nice. And the second Victory and Challenge were really nicely done. The crying at the end was a nice tough -- it was the first time I've seen Kimeru teary before.

Other than that, I think I'll like disk 2 a lot (haven't seen it yet). I'm not disappointed per se, but at the same time, I wish they had done Hyotei as their graduation -- something new and what would have been very cool. A new song would have been nice too but it was too much to hope for.

Singing was really good in this one and more things went well in this one than the other ones. I just don't didn't find it as exciting or had as many fangirly KYA moments watching. It might just be that I'm dead tired but I think I would have thought otherwise had I had enough sleep. Also, the very end, the graduation thing where they did their speeches -- my favorite part of the whole first disk. So emotional, so beautiful, so great. It was amazing. I might not have understood what they were saying exactly but I could feel it. Loved it. And the tears again! Love tears!

I really wish I knew what Kimeru was saying during that part... He was crying and his voice breaking... I can only imagine what he was talking about but I think it probably has to do with Kotaroh's accident... They were really close...

After watching him talk so emotionally, so expressively, so incredibly, could there be any reason why I shouldn't love this man? I can't imagine someone so great. I love Kimeru so much.... I really hope this will be fansubbed in the future.

That's all I'm gonna say on the matter. Anything more (even though I did say a lot already) would be too much and probably just my nit-picking.

Oh, sidenote! Is it just me or has Kimeru gotten...more plump? Maybe it's just me... Everytime there's a closeup of his face, I stare at it and wonder if it's really different or not.

Another small little unrelated thing. I'm glad I survived April Fools Day in the dorm. Our door was one of the few that were not taped completely shut (as in you couldn't get out because there was this layer of tape right in front of your door and you had to cut/break your way out. Our floor didn't fare as well, trash and other stuff everywhere in the hall but... And I fell for three LJ April Fools Day things. They absolutely suck. I don't understand the humor in getting people excited (usually in an unpleasant way) for your own enjoyment. There's something wrong about that, I think. And yes, I really have no sense of humor.

Gods...

It just struck me how the end of Tenimyu is affecting me... I told myself that I couldn't cry, that it was stupid to feel so emotional over something like this but Tenimyu was like two years of my life. It marks an end of a part of my life. How could I not feel emotional? I'm fighting tears right now. God, Tenimyu has ended, Tenipuri has ended, what the hell am I supposed to do now?

This was such a large part of my life that I can't help but feel sad that it's over. God, so many memories... So much of my life, so much of how I am now has been influenced by Tenipuri. It was responsible for my love of Kimeru which has stretched to all parts of my life. God....

I never really thought it could end like this. I'm not sure if I want to watch the other myus. I fell in love with these people in these roles -- to have other people there... It would feel so wrong.

I can't believe its ended now. It seems so final after watching the end of the first disk. God, if I keep on thinking about it, I really am going to start bawling. This myu, though the myu itself didn't rank the highest on my list, still has so much associated with it that makes it really remarkable.

I'm going to miss everyone. I'll continue supporting Kimeru and hopefully, that'll be enough.