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Dec. 27th, 2012 01:29 amSo, I've been watching Gossip Girl.
I know. But it's actually not that bad! I mean, I watched The OC when I was in high school and I sorta thought I would be too old for something like Gossip Girl but if there's nothing I can't resist, it's rich people, NYC, and damaged people and Gossip Girl has all of it.
It first came onto my radar earlier this week when I read that it had recently aired its series finale and you know me, I loved a completed story. I like knowing there's an ending and I like knowing that ending so I don't get pissed off at the end when it ends up like I didn't want it to. There are few things I hate more than investing myself (especially for six seasons, well, five seasons and their abbreviated 10 episodes season 6) and hating the ending. And with most shows on hiatus until January, I found myself with free TV viewing time.
So I went and I downloaded the first season. And then I proceeded to watch it over two days. I think I averaged four hours of sleep during those two days... But it was good! I liked it! And so I continued on through the second season and I found myself falling in love with the character of Chuck and with the Chuck and Blair pairing. I can totally see why so many people started to gravitate towards them. They have a sort of soulmate, epic sort of passionate, combustive love... Unfortunately, those types of love with two people who are really damaged and who tend to be arrogant, egotistical and selfish makes for not an easy love. It seemed like the first season was about them falling in love, the second season about them trying to admit it so they could be together, and now that I'm in the third season, it's about them being in love, being together, and then ultimately flaming and burning out leading up to their eventual dissolution.
And I'm too invested at this point. I watched the first two seasons in like three days but I've been watching the third season slowly because I know what's going to happen and it's horrible and bad and I don't know how I could think they could still be together after something like that... And I know they still love each other and I know they desperately love each other, but getting back together won't happen until the sixth season (which I kinda skimmed through, mostly because I couldn't wait to sit through two agonizing seasons where I watch them pine and hurt each other and never being together) when they marry in the last episode.
It was a beautiful wedding. And the time jump -- they have a cute little son! But they're still so young, and it was the last episode so it also feels empty... I want more of their story. I want to see them make it work. I want to see them raise a kid. I want to see them freaking out that they are having kid so young. But I won't get any of that. And I can't find fanfic for them, none that are good anyway. ><
I seriously don't understand but whenever I get into a het couple, I run into this problem of not being able to find decent fic in an abundant quantity. With slash, even if it's a rarer pairing, I still manage to find some wonderful gems but for het, it seems so much harder...
At this point, I'm counting down the episodes until they break up. It's going to break my heart and I know it. But I can't keep avoiding it forever because if I don't move on, I can't see them move on. I'm just afraid that if I do watch it, my opinion of them will change and I'll eventually think there's too much baggage between them, that they're too damaged for each other and that they're ultimately bad for each other, even if they desperately are in love... How tragic will that be? And if that comes to pass, how disappointing with the beautiful wedding and ending will be at the end of the sixth season? It'll feel empty and unsatisfying and that seems even sadder. I don't know. I think I just need to rip through the episodes and remember they do end up happy at the end... It'll all be worth it, hopefully...
I know. But it's actually not that bad! I mean, I watched The OC when I was in high school and I sorta thought I would be too old for something like Gossip Girl but if there's nothing I can't resist, it's rich people, NYC, and damaged people and Gossip Girl has all of it.
It first came onto my radar earlier this week when I read that it had recently aired its series finale and you know me, I loved a completed story. I like knowing there's an ending and I like knowing that ending so I don't get pissed off at the end when it ends up like I didn't want it to. There are few things I hate more than investing myself (especially for six seasons, well, five seasons and their abbreviated 10 episodes season 6) and hating the ending. And with most shows on hiatus until January, I found myself with free TV viewing time.
So I went and I downloaded the first season. And then I proceeded to watch it over two days. I think I averaged four hours of sleep during those two days... But it was good! I liked it! And so I continued on through the second season and I found myself falling in love with the character of Chuck and with the Chuck and Blair pairing. I can totally see why so many people started to gravitate towards them. They have a sort of soulmate, epic sort of passionate, combustive love... Unfortunately, those types of love with two people who are really damaged and who tend to be arrogant, egotistical and selfish makes for not an easy love. It seemed like the first season was about them falling in love, the second season about them trying to admit it so they could be together, and now that I'm in the third season, it's about them being in love, being together, and then ultimately flaming and burning out leading up to their eventual dissolution.
And I'm too invested at this point. I watched the first two seasons in like three days but I've been watching the third season slowly because I know what's going to happen and it's horrible and bad and I don't know how I could think they could still be together after something like that... And I know they still love each other and I know they desperately love each other, but getting back together won't happen until the sixth season (which I kinda skimmed through, mostly because I couldn't wait to sit through two agonizing seasons where I watch them pine and hurt each other and never being together) when they marry in the last episode.
It was a beautiful wedding. And the time jump -- they have a cute little son! But they're still so young, and it was the last episode so it also feels empty... I want more of their story. I want to see them make it work. I want to see them raise a kid. I want to see them freaking out that they are having kid so young. But I won't get any of that. And I can't find fanfic for them, none that are good anyway. ><
I seriously don't understand but whenever I get into a het couple, I run into this problem of not being able to find decent fic in an abundant quantity. With slash, even if it's a rarer pairing, I still manage to find some wonderful gems but for het, it seems so much harder...
At this point, I'm counting down the episodes until they break up. It's going to break my heart and I know it. But I can't keep avoiding it forever because if I don't move on, I can't see them move on. I'm just afraid that if I do watch it, my opinion of them will change and I'll eventually think there's too much baggage between them, that they're too damaged for each other and that they're ultimately bad for each other, even if they desperately are in love... How tragic will that be? And if that comes to pass, how disappointing with the beautiful wedding and ending will be at the end of the sixth season? It'll feel empty and unsatisfying and that seems even sadder. I don't know. I think I just need to rip through the episodes and remember they do end up happy at the end... It'll all be worth it, hopefully...
