Oh, I so love!
Feb. 18th, 2006 05:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sherryillkI totally ♥ ZZ's Be Survivor! This type of song are among my favorites! Loud, fast, energetic! I am caught up in the passion and the happiness of this song! Tell me it wouldn't be the coolest thing ever to be in a rave where this song is blasting off the speakers, surrounded by a hundred of like-minded people as they lost themselves to this song.
Ah, I love this song! So much love! I really wish I had more of ZZ's songs! They remind me awfully of WAG, which isn't a bad thing because I ♥ WAG too.
Today I was feeling kinda down with no music really grabbing my attention... I tried Kimeru and he just wasn't cutting it for me. And then I had one of those moments where you wonder if you're not out of it and are desperately fooling yourself by refusing to let go. But I still love Kimeru! Why, I'm not quite sure any more but I'm sure that with the newest single and DVD, I'll be quickly reminded why I'm his fan. Most of the time, I would be energized and hit with a blast of understanding but when there's a lackluster single, sometimes I feel like if liking Kimeru comes with too much baggage... And that I'm just too tired to deal with all of it now. I liked it better when it seemed like there was me and there was Kimeru who I adored. When other people seem to come in and interfere with the pure relationship of Kimeru and me as his fan. Then things like, am I a true fan -- how do I show that I am one, how do I interact with the other fans -- am I supposed to smile and play nice with them when I don't really care? Do I try not offending them when the only thing connecting us is Kimeru -- is that disrespectful to Kimeru? How do I act as a "fan of Kimeru" and is that right that I'm starting to think of these labels to put on myself and others? So much more defines who we are as people and I feel like I'm limiting myself...
*sigh* I don't fangirl over singers. Or actors. Not crazily so. Not concretely. Most of the time they're more like passing fancies and I flitter away as soon as the next thing comes along. In this way, Kimeru has always been different. And now I wonder if I've chosen the right person to hold so highly. Or maybe it's fandom that sucks the joy out of the pure association of fan and artist like the way the new scoring system sucks the passion out of skating. Eventually, I feel as if the more I participate in fandom, the more I want to retreat into myself and never come out again. It's so easy to hate people when they're under this fandom haze -- it's like they've breathed in air that's been lazed with a drug that divorces them from reality. It's not just music related fandoms -- it's like anime, manga, everything out there.
I'm starting to miss the good old days of the Stargate, Highlander, The Sentinel fandoms. I always had so much fun in them! Perhaps that's because I only lurked. I interacted with authors but only on a one-on-one basis and things were just so much lighter. It's amazing that as I grow up, I end up in even more superficial and childish associations. Sometimes I feel like I've done myself a great disservice by getting into anime and Japanese-related stuff... Even I've noticed it in the way I act in RL -- it's as though I've regressed rather than progressed. *sigh* This is really depressing... :(
Ah whatever. I don't have the answers to anything but I don't this to keep me down. I will hold on to what I know -- I like Kimeru. I have made friends online through liking Kimeru. I like them as people, well as the people they are online. I may not like everyone out there, but it's unreasonable for anyone to do so. And since it's bad to hate discriminately in RL, it's probably bad to do the same online so to those whom I seem to hate with a passion -- well, I just need to learn to leave them alone because associating with people you don't like but are forcing yourself to be civil is unhealthy.
Anyway, back to Be Survivor! The mp3: ZZ - Be Survivor
And some other songs that I uploaded last night. They're from the TVB drama "Revolving Doors of Vengeance".
The theme song is song by Hacken Lee and can be found here: http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/Revolving_Doors_of_Vengeance--theme_full_HackenLee.mp3
The sub theme (basically the ending theme) is sung by Ron Ng, the main male lead of the show: http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/Revolving_Doors_of_Vengeance--subtheme_full_RonNg.mp3
Since both songs are from a TVB drama, that of course means they're in Cantonese. ^^ I really love the sub theme done by Ron but I really wish it were in better quality. It sounds as though it was recorded off the radio or TV or something. But still, a good song. I hadn't really known Ron all that well before this drama (I think the only other drama I've seen him in was Lost in the Chamber of Love -- which I did like) but this song and the show does make him grow on you.
edit x1: How very odd... I just noticed that the comment feature was removed, for no apparent reason because I sure as hell didn't do that! Hmm....I wonder what happened? Well that's gone now. :)
Ah, I love this song! So much love! I really wish I had more of ZZ's songs! They remind me awfully of WAG, which isn't a bad thing because I ♥ WAG too.
Today I was feeling kinda down with no music really grabbing my attention... I tried Kimeru and he just wasn't cutting it for me. And then I had one of those moments where you wonder if you're not out of it and are desperately fooling yourself by refusing to let go. But I still love Kimeru! Why, I'm not quite sure any more but I'm sure that with the newest single and DVD, I'll be quickly reminded why I'm his fan. Most of the time, I would be energized and hit with a blast of understanding but when there's a lackluster single, sometimes I feel like if liking Kimeru comes with too much baggage... And that I'm just too tired to deal with all of it now. I liked it better when it seemed like there was me and there was Kimeru who I adored. When other people seem to come in and interfere with the pure relationship of Kimeru and me as his fan. Then things like, am I a true fan -- how do I show that I am one, how do I interact with the other fans -- am I supposed to smile and play nice with them when I don't really care? Do I try not offending them when the only thing connecting us is Kimeru -- is that disrespectful to Kimeru? How do I act as a "fan of Kimeru" and is that right that I'm starting to think of these labels to put on myself and others? So much more defines who we are as people and I feel like I'm limiting myself...
*sigh* I don't fangirl over singers. Or actors. Not crazily so. Not concretely. Most of the time they're more like passing fancies and I flitter away as soon as the next thing comes along. In this way, Kimeru has always been different. And now I wonder if I've chosen the right person to hold so highly. Or maybe it's fandom that sucks the joy out of the pure association of fan and artist like the way the new scoring system sucks the passion out of skating. Eventually, I feel as if the more I participate in fandom, the more I want to retreat into myself and never come out again. It's so easy to hate people when they're under this fandom haze -- it's like they've breathed in air that's been lazed with a drug that divorces them from reality. It's not just music related fandoms -- it's like anime, manga, everything out there.
I'm starting to miss the good old days of the Stargate, Highlander, The Sentinel fandoms. I always had so much fun in them! Perhaps that's because I only lurked. I interacted with authors but only on a one-on-one basis and things were just so much lighter. It's amazing that as I grow up, I end up in even more superficial and childish associations. Sometimes I feel like I've done myself a great disservice by getting into anime and Japanese-related stuff... Even I've noticed it in the way I act in RL -- it's as though I've regressed rather than progressed. *sigh* This is really depressing... :(
Ah whatever. I don't have the answers to anything but I don't this to keep me down. I will hold on to what I know -- I like Kimeru. I have made friends online through liking Kimeru. I like them as people, well as the people they are online. I may not like everyone out there, but it's unreasonable for anyone to do so. And since it's bad to hate discriminately in RL, it's probably bad to do the same online so to those whom I seem to hate with a passion -- well, I just need to learn to leave them alone because associating with people you don't like but are forcing yourself to be civil is unhealthy.
Anyway, back to Be Survivor! The mp3: ZZ - Be Survivor
And some other songs that I uploaded last night. They're from the TVB drama "Revolving Doors of Vengeance".
The theme song is song by Hacken Lee and can be found here: http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/Revolving_Doors_of_Vengeance--theme_full_HackenLee.mp3
The sub theme (basically the ending theme) is sung by Ron Ng, the main male lead of the show: http://homepages.nyu.edu/~smc449/Revolving_Doors_of_Vengeance--subtheme_full_RonNg.mp3
Since both songs are from a TVB drama, that of course means they're in Cantonese. ^^ I really love the sub theme done by Ron but I really wish it were in better quality. It sounds as though it was recorded off the radio or TV or something. But still, a good song. I hadn't really known Ron all that well before this drama (I think the only other drama I've seen him in was Lost in the Chamber of Love -- which I did like) but this song and the show does make him grow on you.
edit x1: How very odd... I just noticed that the comment feature was removed, for no apparent reason because I sure as hell didn't do that! Hmm....I wonder what happened? Well that's gone now. :)
